musings

The power of feminism - Can ageless love exist?

2011-11-03T10:14:00.005+08:00

Older Woman / Younger Man - Does age matter in a relationship?

Younger people who are more mature than most of their contemporaries may actually find an older mate to be more congenial. Yet as in any age gap relationships, the preference for a much older mate should be scrutinized with great care.

The danger is that the older person is psychologically a substitute parent, rather than a mate.

Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/94787

If these celebrities can do it, so can you!

Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher (15-year gap)
Madonna and Jesus Luz (28-year gap)
Paul Daniels and Debbie McGee (20-year gap)
Michael Douglas and Catherine Zeta Jones (25-year gap)
Sam Taylor-Wood and Aaron Johnson (23-year gap)
Elton John and David Furnish (15-year gap)
Ellen DeGeneres and Portia de Rossi (15-year gap)

Taken from: http://www.myora.com/Advice/Article/114

Relationship support for Ageless Love

Please go to: http://www.agelesslove.com/boards/forum.php

A lot depends on the mental maturity of both people.

For an older woman/younger man (OW/YM), the odds are stacked against them from the start.

Unlike an older man/younger woman (OM/YW) pairing, like Hugh Hefner and his playmates, society frowns upon the OW/YM union. A traditional society readily accepts and to some extent celebrates OM/YW pairing. Some common arguments are that the OM has the status and capability. This is utterly untrue as it buys into the argument that the YW is "backbone-less" and willing to settle for tradeoffs in the relationship. The society cast an immediate perception that the YW is after the older one for money, and is willing to trade her body for material pleasures. How true is this? We won't know. Except the two involved.

Perhaps a study on the longetivity of such relationships will help.

The OW is branded names like cougar and milf. Degratory terms which do not serve the purpose of feminism. Many a times, the people who perpetuates these ideas are women themselves. It takes two hands to clap. And such a perception can never be sustained by what many choose to believe as Male Chauvinists driven ideas, it is however in fact, truly perpetuated by the silent acknowledgement of females or basically the refusal to rise against such opinions. True enough, it may be the "traditional males" who frown upon a OW/YM union but it does not help that the spouses do not support their often less lucky counterparts.

Stacked against them, we have a society who turns inwardly against females. In a modern society, encouraging feminism and the empowerment of women and to a large extent equality of sexes, we are unfortunately still archaic in our perception of relationships.

Already, females are turning waves in various arenas.

For example, the heads of state.
Philippines First Female President Maria Corazon Sumulong Cojuangco-Aquino
The current Chancellor of Germany Angela Dorothea Merkel
27th Prime Minister of Australia Julia Gillard, since Jun 2010

Eminent First Ladies
The first lady of the 44th President of the United States Michelle LaVaughn Robinson Obama
The multi-talented and immensely beautiful First Lady of the President of the French Republic Carla Bruni-Sarkozy

Top Corporate Performers
Managing Director of the International Monetary Fund, Christine Madeleine Odette Lagarde

Top Humanitarian Figures we subscribe to
Mother Teresa
Florence Nightingale

Top Actresses
Helen Lydia Mironoff (a.k.a Helen Mirren)

As we strive to promote the flourishing of a society where females co-drive the nation, perhaps we can take a moment and reflect on the concept of feminist equality in terms of age-gap differences for relationships.

The Escape Art's Philosophy

2010-11-15T11:59:00.002+08:00

David Belle: Its people who are giving the impression that you're doing something wrong. But you're like: "What's the matter?"

People have different perspectives. The danger comes when people with similiar perspectives band tgt and impose theirs (as a majority) on others.
Those who continue to hold their own persepctive are branded as outcasts, rebels and even sociopath. It is sad how we're caged by what's a consensus. In an ideal world, ppl should be free and have the benefit of choice. But in practice, it is not entirely possible.

My willingness to jump (train) - parkour, affects your perspective of safety and incites pandemonium due to what is known as "socially unacceptable" behaviour (which is essentially caging by nature).

PARKOUR - David Belle Interview

Policy Change – S. Korea turn of attitude

2010-11-10T11:16:00.003+08:00

Nov 10, 2010
S.Korea drops call for apology from the North
Move could result in resumption of six-party talks, food and other aid

This is significant because the turn in attitude was initiated by S. Korea.

For a nation who had their vessel sunk- Cheonan, the S. Korea's move could emphasize her magnanimity. But there could be many more alternatives/"or"s:

Or it represent a stronger desire by S. Korea to welcome N. Korea to the six-party talks than the latter desired. Or for a nation traditionally supported by the world powers against the delinquent half, it could signify the mounting pressure on the nation to restart talks to further, whatever means in store, or protect against a potential terror threat. Or S. Korea could have sensed another burgeoning threat, possibly nuclear that required the swift return to six-party talks to stamp the threat out of reality. Or more probably, the whole “Cheonan” incident could have ended to be a staged bargaining chip eroding into a fiasco.

As quoted in the article, “Most political analysts in the South believe a North Korean apology for the Cheonan sinking is highly unlikely.” An issue of apology, would present itself as an recognizing the accusation, the committing of the crime. An adamant refusal to admit, could come across as insisted innocence or possibly pure obstinacy. Fair enough, N. Korea may refuse to comment. Nevertheless, it has grown to become common knowledge that this incident would jut out like a sore wound even during the resumption of six-party talks or the conduct of bilateral relations, as proven by the recurrence of the issue on agenda of various bilateral meetings planned for the G-20 gathering.

this incident would jut out like a sore wound even during the resumption of
six-party talks or the conduct of bilateral relations

All this maybe speculation but it certainly is peculiar for a man to forgive another jerk after he slept with the former's wife. And even dissolving the need for apology, on the simple condition that he display sincerity and discretion in the future conduct of relations. It certainly shows the "cuckold" going out of his way, ain't it. *forgive the analogy* Or it could be that one recognize the bigger picture, and swallow the bad reaction to display unusual magnanimity, to get the other, back to the negotiating table in order to make concessions and agree to a unified Korean dream for the future.

it certainly is peculiar

Nonetheless, the tale of the two estranged brothers is certainly an interesting case to watch.

Rearing a child is expensive, mothers have it tougher.

2010-11-09T11:41:00.004+08:00

Baby incentive fails to excite South Koreans
Govt's $88b plan to lift fertility rate does not tackle problem of social burden borne by women
By Lee Sun Young, for The Straits Times
9 Nov 2010

A classic example of the problems that plague an ageing population with stubbornly low birth rates.
Government support helps but often prove 2nd fiddle to family planning and societal pressure.

Flexi-hours: Will they do the job?
By Kim Ji Hyun, for The Straits Times
9 Nov 2010

Traditionally workaholic S. Korean firms explore flexi-hours.
I believe the success intrinsic-ly boils down to the job requirement and perspective of both the employers and employees.

Job Requirement
Service, production line where another can easily take over where you left off, sounds favourable to the flexi-hours work scheme. However, jobs which require continuous supervision by committed professionals, for examply in the research line, may not be that kind to flexi-hours.

Employers
Acceptance to the flexi-hours scheme and willingness to make concessions to fit the transition/ risk a temporary drop in productivity levels during initial stages of implementation.

Employees
Expectations of ascent in careers through promotions should not be first priority then. It is difficult to see how

From a corporate perspective bent on progress and sustained results, i believe that the flexi-hours holds too much uncertainty of bearing fruit, and risk incurring a bigger pool of employees whose benefits one have to look after. Not too feasible.

Let's study the Singapore aspect.
Aim:
How successful do firms find the implementation of flexi-hours working scheme for their productivity and profits margin?
How do employees find flexi-hours contributing to the bigger picture of the work and more importantly, their life?

"privates" are extremely useful

2010-11-07T16:51:00.002+08:00

I assure you that.

Be it blatant privates.
Privates - juniors in the chain of military command.
But more so, the things in one closet.

The way your eyes speak. - The body tells a thousand tales.
Your private life. - It is no wonder PIs cost a lot.
The emotions you bring forth - Knowing how they arise, knowing the triggers, capturing the Psychological bearings.

They are great liabilities.
Things that another can use.

Honesty and sincerity is the greatest gift one can give.
But alligators can use them.
Welcome to the amusing world of human relationships.

Be unguarded or build a outrageously thick lead well around yourself?

I like this song. U2 and R.E.M. make great combinations.
One Live

Nightswimming - I'm not sure all these people understand.

2010-11-07T16:47:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qx9br5ISRpo&NR=1&feature=fvwp

Not everything you do has to be explained explicitly.
Not everyone will understand your intention. But does it matter?
Not if belief and intent are parallel.

Litigation - how you see it?

2010-11-07T16:45:00.001+08:00

One man's frivolity maybe all the defence another man can count on.

1 Apr

2010-04-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

i should stop "coming in on a wing and a prayer".

http://www.phrases.org.uk/meanings/on-a-wing-and-a-prayer.html

24 Feb - contorted Black Black Heart

2010-02-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

it is so easy to fall into an abyss
as the optimism slip
when i shut my eyes do i slip into bliss
as i begin to lose my grip
we live for pleasure feel the pain
in this world i'm undying
but does undying mean a thing

black black heart, why would you offer more
why do you make it easier to satisfy
i'm on fire, i'm rotting to the core
i'm sweeping all your ink and morals
all your sex and your diamonds

as i lose myself in this life
- of dope breathing in the toxins
live for play and feel the plain
i'm naked underneath the world's cover
covers lie and like a zombie we walk through
with no direction no aims
time will come and rape the youth

black black heart why would you offer more
why do you make it easier to satisfy
i'm empty, i'm crying blood
i'm drowning in all my faeces and faces
All my vomit and demons

Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds
All your emptiness and your helplessness
All your vomit and your demons
All your complexes and your glamour
All your sex and your diamonds

6 Feb - how would a martial artist think?

2010-02-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

a martial artist's devotion.

sometimes i wonder, my heart is narrow and my mind is crowded with useless stuff.
is this the way to seek improvement.
i ask myself is this the way of a martial artist?

they say morality and integrity is what distinct a true martial artist from another.
that the embodiment of the lessons goes beyond pure physical honing but in the materialization of one's actions and behaviour.
i believe it would definitely not hurt to learn more techniques such that when the need arises, the body is willing and trained.
times are rare, or never.
but to why do martial artists still train?
the never ending improvement.
the gratification in knowing you can probably punch the teeth out of the bugger standing in front of you, but you don't, because you exercise control.
the betterment of the body and spirit.
i really don't know.

my body and mind is retarded and uncooperative.
techniques take ages to absorb.
yet why do i still train?

my mind is like a highlight reel.
reeling the moves that i would wish to perform to an unstoppable degree.
a close-in clinch, a take-down.
a simple well-crafted well-timed back-hook to the head in the narrowest of angle and space in the nick of time.
these are all dreams.

my body screams.
my knee begs.
my mind dulls.

is this the right approach?
the lessons are aplenty.
the finance is limited.
the time is a constraint.
the energy is an issue.
the body is spent.

what would a martial artist do?
is it worth pursuing the life of one even?

30 Jan

2010-01-30T00:59:00.001+08:00

the first step begins with accepting what you don't want to recognize.

*knee still hurts lah!

10 Jan

2010-01-11T00:45:00.003+08:00

hate wits.

there's a reason why we love proverbs.
awry logic.

*right knee still hurt slightly

27 Dec

2009-12-27T12:46:00.001+08:00

getting wasted is so not funny.. ulghh

less or no alcohol

9 Dec

2009-12-09T14:38:00.001+08:00

Hmm my new year resolution is to say the least amount of "Sorry".

i like these images

The Artwork of Mr Phillip Toledano

From the album Bankrupt

5 Dec - 5 Pressure Points To Relieve Body Discomforts

2009-12-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

(A) Heavenly Pillar

Relieves stress, over exhaustion, insomnia, heaviness in the head, eyestrain, stiff necks, swollen eyes, and sore throats.

(B) Heavenly Rejuvenation

Relieves nervous tension and stiff necks; increases resistance to colds and flu. It is also good for the lungs.

(C) Crooked Marsh

Relieves nervous stomach, anxiety, arm pain, elbow pain, and chest discomfort.

(D) Inner Gate

Relieves nausea, anxiety, palpitations, and wrist pain.

(E) Spirit Gate

Relieves emotional imbalances, fear, nervousness, anxiety, and forgetfulness.

Taken from Clipmarks

Stop an Attack from Behind with Pressure Points

Place your hand on the elbow of the attacker. Most attacks from behind involve the attacker wrapping an arm around the neck or body. Find the pressure point located one inch above the elbow. Press the points on both sides of the upper arm as if sandwiching the bone.

Simultaneously place your other hand on top of the attacker's hand. Wrap your fingers around the meaty part just under the attacker's thumb. Find the pressure point above the webbing between the attacker's thumb and index finger. Press the point from both sides as if sandwiching the meaty part of the attacker's hand. The simultaneous attacks on pressure points in the hand and elbow will stun the attacker.

Stomp the pressure point in the instep of the attacker's foot. Drive your heel straight down on the attacker's shoelaces. This will press the point in the middle of the foot and cause great pain.

Throw your head back. By now the attacker is preoccupied with the pain in his elbow, hand and foot. He is most likely leaning forward in an instinctive reaction to protect himself. Attempt to strike the pressure point just beneath the attacker's nose. This will feel like little more than a tap to the back of your head, but will probably break the attacker's nose.

Step to one side and thrust your elbow straight back. This will put you in line to strike the attacker in the solar plexus. This is the point just below the sternum where your diaphragm helps you breathe. An elbow pressing the point suddenly will knock the air out of any unprepared attacker.

Duck under the attacker's arm while you push up on the arm. This should be easy after neutralizing the attacker with five pressure points in the space of a few seconds. Run away as fast as you can.

All of these pressure point defense techniques should be done in quick succession. The idea is to use the element of surprise to stun the attacker with pressure points. Don't give him time to think about what is happening or to recover. You only have a few seconds to escape. Don't waste them admiring your work.

Taken from Martial Arts Pressure Points

1 Nov

2009-12-01T01:32:00.002+08:00

a flitting concept. the butterfly flies.

the comb builds up.
when the bees work.

i bet even the queen bee is sick of sex.
12/7 entertainment is only so entertaining after all.

worker bees build their comb. protect their comb.
as humans push inexorably for achievement.

26 Nov

2009-11-26T13:28:00.003+08:00

neurosis occurs when the mind ignore the subconscious.
the subconscious would voice itself through dreams.
and when repeated dreams are ignored - a pit opens.

Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well. - Mohandas Gandhi

Coordinate thought - word - actions, and you'll be fine.

26 Nov

2009-11-26T13:25:00.001+08:00

fuelled by my dreams i run.
i like learning new skills.

24 Nov

2009-11-24T14:26:00.001+08:00

for boys will always be boys. and the boy will always seek the female butterfly.

blogs give a sense of freedom. the liberating part lies in publishing one's thoughts without considering twice about backlash. but... but... but... this is only true when the followership is low. the dichotomy lies in that people desire a huge following, but responsiblity, censure, sensationalising follows, which goes against the very initial satisfaction.

i am a journalist. coupled with its relevant ethics. the voice of the person. striving to bring every piece of news in its clearest form.

nobility is often undervalued by society. in other words, the dividends of nobility aren't exactly appealing.

if everyone spend more time on work than interests, Newton may have reduced the sea of infinite possibilities before him to a pond by now.

its too bad, any one came with too much of an emotional baggage. and a pre-conceived attitude.

but if you care, to stare beyond the apathy, you will find a fresh unharvested heart waiting to embrace the world.

for the apathy has fouled the heart and the pit that's so often deep and the vision so often flawed, has come to be accepted. accepting is removing the desire of guilt, and removing so, allows the blind to see again.

we're all very much blind and deaf.

even with eyes, do you really think you see?

21 Nov

2009-11-21T22:40:00.001+08:00

for the record, the things you think not, does arise.
coordinate in thought, deed, action, speech, and you'll be fine.

Someday i'll be saturday night.
feel like clubbing.

6 Nov

2009-11-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

Viva Forever

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

6 Nov

2009-11-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

"The light that burns twice as bright burns half as long, and you have burned so very, very brightly" - Dr. Eldon Tyrell

3 Nov - They don't really care about us.

2009-11-03T09:19:00.002+08:00

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hit me, kick me
You can never get me

angsty genius
for the record, today's weather is cloudy with spite.

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, aggravation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Bang bang, shock dead
Everybody's gone mad

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Beat me, hate me
You can never Break me
Will me, thrill me
You can never Kill me
Do (jew) me sue me
Everybody do me
Kick me, strike (kike) me
Don't you black or white me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my life
I have a wife and two children who love me
I am the victim of police brutality, no
I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate
Your rapin' me of my pride
Oh for God's sake
I look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy
Set me free

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Trepidation, speculation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Black man, black mail
Throw your brother in jail

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible 'cause you ignore me
Your proclamation promised me free liberty, no
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwin' me in a class with a bad name
I can't believe this is the land from which I came
You know I really do hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hit me, kick me
You can never get me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Some things in life they just don't wanna see
But if Martin Luther was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no, no

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, segregation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Kick me, strike (kike) me
Don't you wrong or right me
(They keep me on fire)

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
(They keep me on fire)
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
(I'm there to remind you)
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

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31 Oct - Halloween Run

2009-10-31T17:11:00.003+08:00

the faint visions of the girl struck
a goring pain in the heart stuck
knowing no way can she park
yet it makes me think i really suck

Silly Really - Per Gessle
born to run

24 Oct

2009-10-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

Action expresses priorities. - Mohandas Gandhi

22 Oct

2009-10-22T09:27:00.001+08:00

You give love a bad name - Bon Jovi

An angels smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passions a prison, you cant break free

Youre a loaded gun
Theres nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Chorus:
Shot through the heart
And youre to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name

Paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boys dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

Youre a loaded gun
Theres nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

17 Oct

2009-10-17T11:53:00.002+08:00

Have A Nice Day - Bon Jovi

Ohhh, if there's one thing I hang onto,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.

På promenad genom stan - Per Gessle

Do you wanna be my baby - Per Gessle

14 Oct

2009-10-14T11:24:00.002+08:00

Someday i'll be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi

Hey, my name is jim, where did I go wrong
My lifes a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
I just cant hold a job, where do I belong
Im sleeping in my car, my dreams move on

One Wild Night - Bon Jovi

12 Oct

2009-10-12T13:24:00.001+08:00

Knockin' On Every Door - Roxette (Per Gessle!!)
I Know There's Something Going On - Frida
Kids in America - Kim Wilde
You're My Heart, You're My Soul '98 - Modern Talking
Always - Bon Jovi
Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi

9 Oct

2009-10-09T10:26:00.003+08:00

Its official. BON JOVI ROCKS MY SOUL!

Livin' On A Prayer - Bon Jovi
[Alternative-Soft Rock to Livin' On a Prayer] Prayer '94 - Bon Jovi
Runaway - Bon Jovi
Always - Bon Jovi
It's My Life - Bon Jovi
One Wild Night - Bon Jovi
Everyday - Bon Jovi
You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi
Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi

Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi
Oh, Tuesday just might go my way
It can't get worse than yesterday
Thursdays, Fridays ain't been kind
But somehow I'll survive

Hey, man I'm alive I'm takin' each day and night at a time
Yeah I'm down, but I know I'll get by
Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life
I'm gonna pick up all the pieces and what's left of my pride
I'm feelin' like a Monday, but someday I'll be Saturday night

Saturday night Here we go
Some day I'll be Saturday night
I'll be back on my feet, I'll be doin' alright
It may not be tomorrow baby, that's OK
I ain't goin' down, gonna find a way, hey hey hey

You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin' you give love a bad name

Runaway - Bon Jovi
On the street where you live girls talk about their social lives
Theyre made of lipstick, plastic and paint, a touch of sable in their eyes
All your life all youve asked whens your daddy gonna talk to you
You were living in another world tryin to get your message through.

No one heard a single word you said.
They should have seen it in your eyes
What was going around your heart.

...

A different line every night guaranteed to blow your mind
See you out on the streets, call me for a wild time
So you sit home alone cause theres nothing left that you can do
Theres only pictures hung in the shadows left there to look at you

You know she likes the lights at nights on the neon broadway signs
She dont really mind, its only love she hoped to find

8 Oct

2009-10-08T12:30:00.002+08:00

Tale a look around - Limp Bizkit
Thank you for loving me - Bon Jovi
Island in the sun - Weezer
Runaway - Avril Lavinge
Life goes on -LeAnn Rimes
Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Affirmation - Savage Garden

7 Oct - free and affirmed

2009-10-07T23:16:00.003+08:00

Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
Här Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle
Are you still having fun - Eagle Eye Cherry

tomorrow comes to take me away
i wish that i - that i could stay
but girl you know i've got to go [ohh ]
and Lord i wish it wasn't so
Save tonight

i have confidence in my abilities.

7 Oct

2009-10-07T10:53:00.003+08:00

Surf Wax America - Weezer
I Want It That Way - Backstreet Boys
Anything but ordinary - Avril Lavigne
No one else comes close - Backstreet Boys
Please don't stop the music - Rihanna
(GREAT) The Great London Traffic Warden - Morcheeba

Kitaro
Back Water - Brian Eno

Dislike people who conveniently disrespect privacy, and take it as a god given right.
What you want is often not what you get.
Needs to do Ops fast!
Clears as fast as possible.
Having a little extra time helps to relieve things a long way.
Strive to take on a more easy-less pressed up life.

why go

2009-10-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Pearl Jam
The Killers

5 Oct

2009-10-05T22:15:00.004+08:00

Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnn Rimes
Här Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle

Här Kommer Alla Känslorna

Jag borde ha förstått nåt när du tittade bort
Att allting har ett slut
Att allt det vackra är kort
Nu sitter jag och fryser på en regnig perrong

Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Vi möttes mitt i vintern när mitt hjärta var tömt
Jag placerade dig i drömmen som jag borde ha glömt
Nu faller den från himlen som en trasig ballong

Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Jag sitter ensam kvar och hör varje tåg
Vissla hallå ifrån ett ringlande spår
Var är du?
Man kan undra när timmarna går
Du borde sett hur underbart jag mår

Jag ska bygga mig en båt och segla tills det blir vår
Jag ska försöka att förtränga doften av ditt hår
Jag ska skrika så det hörs igenom all grå betong

För här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Jag sitter ensam kvar och hör varje tåg
Vissla hallå ifrån ett evigt spår
Men det är slut
Det är dags att slå en knut
Öppna grinden för nu går jag ut

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Swedish - English translation:

I should have understood something when you looked away
That everything has an end
That everything is pretty short
Now I sit and freeze on a rainy platform

And here comes all the emotions at the same time
And here comes all the emotions at the same time

We met in the middle of winter when my heart was emptied
I placed you in a dream that I should have forgotten
Now it falls from the sky like a broken balloon

And here comes all the emotions at the same time
And here comes all the emotions at the same time

I sit all alone and hear every train
Whistle hello from a winding track
Where are you?
One wonders when the hours are
You should have seen how wonderful I feel

I'll build me a boat and sail until it becomes our
I will try to suppress the smell of your hair
I'll scream so it is heard through all gray concrete

For this, all the emotions at the same time
Here are all the emotions at the same time

I sit all alone and hear every train
Whistle hello from an eternal track
But it is the end
It is time for a knot
Open the gate for now I go out

Here are all the emotions at the same time
Here are all the emotions at the same time

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Here are all the emotions at the same time

William Shakespeare's As You Like It

2009-10-04T11:23:00.001+08:00

All the world's a stage,

And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven ages.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms;
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' brow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion;
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything."

— Jaques (Act II, Scene VII, lines 139-166)

4 Oct

2009-10-04T11:08:00.002+08:00

You Gonna Miss This - Trace Adkins

what you don't get makes your yearn for it.
it's sad that what humans can't understand, humans chuck.
a missed opportunity is archived. they should not be brought up and talk about unless necessary.

3 Oct

2009-10-03T08:37:00.003+08:00

S.O.S. - Agnetha Fältskog
Je marche seul - Jean-Jacques Goldman

Please no disaster please.
Golden.

Does this imply service draws boys away from childhood?

2009-10-01T11:42:00.001+08:00

debt

2009-09-30T15:29:00.001+08:00

no one owes you anything.

even if you do people favours, people may not even reciprocate.
lesson learnt.

30 Sep

2009-09-30T10:19:00.004+08:00

Mama - Spice Girls
Mamma Mia- ABBA
On a night like this - Kylie Minogue
To the moon and back - Savage Garden
Lena Philipsson
Faithful - Go West
Those simple things - Right said Fred
POP - Nsync
Sinfoni Deo - Era
Om Du Bara Vill - Per Gessle

sincere things endure.

Claudia Jung - JE T'AIME MON AMOUR

2009-09-30T10:11:00.002+08:00

a song with feel.
Claudia Jung

JE T'AIME MON AMOUR

Verliebt ist,wenn man trotzdem weint
Das kommt bestimmt vom glücklich sein
Ich geb'mich ganz in deine Hand
Das Herz ist stärker als Verstand
Je t'aime mon amour
Ich küsse Dir die Augen zu
Alles was ich jetzt brauch,bist immer nur du

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn meine Zärtlichkeit erwacht
Spür'wie die Wärme deiner Haut
Das Eis in meiner Seele taut
Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn dein Gefühl mich hilflos macht
Es gibt für uns nur Liebe pur
Ce soir je t'aime mon amour

Bist mir ganz nah im Kerzenlicht
Und deine Augen streicheln mich
Ich lieg'in deinem Arm und sag'
was ich sonst nur zu denken wag'
Je t'aime mon amour

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht...

German Google Translate

I Love you my love

Love is when you still weeps
This is determined by be happy
I geb'mich entirely in your hands
The heart is stronger than intellect
Je t'aime mon amour
I kiss your eyes
All I need now, you're always you

How many hours are there in the night
When waking my affection
Spür'wie the warmth of your skin
The ice thaws in my soul
How many hours are there in the night
If your feeling helpless makes
For us there is only pure love
Ce soir je t'aime mon amour

Are very close to me in the candlelight
And your eyes caress me
I lieg'in your arm and tell
I only dare to think otherwise '
Je t'aime mon amour

How many hours are there in the night ...

human beings have a thirst to understand things that they don't know.

born to run

2009-09-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

today's run was okay.
found a new running route.
realized i can run to east coast park from my house.

much slower though. it could be the 2 months lull of not running.

my mind can hardly be stimulated now. and feel really excited.
is this a result of growing up?
if so, i don't want it.
i'm joking.
this is part of life.

a burning heart

2009-09-28T21:08:00.003+08:00

Flaming heart flaming heart...

i just finished a drama.
the last episode is really awesome!
Burning Flame III

great great drama to watch.
draggy and exhausting love triangle.
the ladies Aimee Chan 容少意 (Easy) , Rachel Kan 何懿徵 (June Ho) , Elaine Yiu 卓敏 (Cheuk Man) are pretty with well-developed characters.
thought shing 鍾有成 (阿牛) would really die as with the preceding two series.
brave fireman. failed relationship. obstinate as an ox. thrown into coma. lost a leg. amputated. haunted by death visions. and yet still had the tenacity to overcome things and bounce back from life, no matter how much he wanted to give up and probably would have.

really have much alike with his character. though would not have like those bad attributes. i'm indeed stubborn.
plus he had a pretty girlfriend in the end, 何懿徵 (June) . haha

his hard driving, bull-dozing hardworker mould is what i used to pride myself on, and hoped to make it my mould for the present and the future.
coupled with 卓柏宇 (Rex)'s fun-loving style, clean-cut and refreshing dress sense, loyalty to friends, high-flying achiever mould.

won't do anything if it isn't fun. dress practically yet gentlemanly. work hard and aim for the achievement while playing by the ear and learning to take obstacles, navigating past unhappiness, living the life of the "superior" person.

well a guy can dream.
however it is true.

out of difficulties grow miracles.

Photos courtesy of TVB.

off technique

2009-09-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

my technique is still off.
think every individual have their own brand of turning kick. but the starting point is all similar.

got to practice and find my own niche.

ops tomorrow.
somehow working isn't that fun anymore.
my pact with myself, to make life as fun as ever seems to be falling apart.

flawed

2009-09-23T23:24:00.002+08:00

its how you react when you know your flaws that forms your character.
knowing and not changing not alleviating it is stupid.

i lacked speed.
i have a slow reaction.
i take some time to warm up.
its difficult to sustain my attention.

the brain runs

2009-09-23T22:49:00.003+08:00

(this cool guy is not me by the way)

the thing about martial arts is not something you pick up, learn and forget.
its for life.
and through it, through the silent honing of the techniques, one learn more about oneself.
and learn to respect myself more, through the repeated honed execution of technique.
a journey of self-esteem.
its also a journey of realization, and learning about one's responses when in a particular situation.
when a guy charges at you, do you stand and get hit.
or do you retreat.
or do you slide away and counter.
do you despair after getting hit?
or do you rebound from each hit, and learn to embrace life more.

Remember, life is precious so stand up with more strength after you fall.
Burning Flame Season 2 Synopsis Musing

taking shots may be necessary. but it should not be passive.
the supporting leg needs to be less slothy. (sounds like slutty)
and the body needs to react with equal sharpness vigour and power.

its just like life. taking shots may be necessary.
but it should not be passive. like getting tank-loaded with assignments.
two things are important. learning not to compromise oneself and be gracious and open/accommodating at the same time. craving a retreat path/backing for oneself if things blow up.

its really much like martial arts.
finding the "complementariness" and not just going on a one-way loading of information is necessary.
there's after all so much a sensei, a teacher can load into you. the effort, the desire to improve comes from the student.
自古以来 this has been the case, 自今也不会变。
be humble. learn. as in really learn. effort. and i'll be fine.

we meet teachers at every point of our life. its how we internalize the different teachings that define our character.

we meet difficulties in our daily life. it is our response that says a lot about our character. it is how we choose to cope with it at that moment. or if the moment has passed, and it was unsatisfactorily handled, how we pull out the stops to overcome it, such that it doesn't become a habitual haunt.

there is nothing more stupid in this world than making the same mistake twice. (stubborn as i may be, i am not stupid.)

acknowledging

2009-09-23T22:45:00.003+08:00

i don't think it is a problem of not knowing the technique.
it is a problem of enforcing myself to execute the right technique every single time.
and enjoy it at the same time. - the challenge

what would i be, if i persist in my stubborn-playful-anyhow-self indulgent-mood
there would be no improvement.
time to pull out all stops.

gonna try the enforcement.

responsibility is a big issue for me now.
making and amassing money is one big issue too.
my hand hurts~~

english tea

2009-09-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

Would you care to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

vs

Would you like to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

i think they are worlds apart in meaning. haha

a summer song

2009-09-20T13:23:00.002+08:00

after all, i am still a little boy at heart.

Chad and Jeremy - A summer song

They say that all good things must end someday
Autumn leaves must fall

off to kick. aim: practice each technique acutely.

me

2009-09-20T02:37:00.002+08:00

i'm not a saint.

English Tea - Sir Paul McCartney

Would you care to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

What a pleasure it would be
Chatting so delightfully...

Miles of miles of English garden
Stretching past the willow tree
Lines of hollyhocks and roses
Listen most attentively

As a rule the church bells chime
When it's almost supper time

my idea of a fun-packed day

2009-09-20T00:31:00.005+08:00

Today has been a reasonably fun day.
Tried to relax, let loose. release the two clenched fists that i think i always hold. (seriousness)
I know that i am capable of having good fun. but when the time comes fun seems to evade me sometimes.

but it has been reasonably fun. caught up with quite a few good friends.

set off for Escape theme park. great drift. great bang. cold. bad weather. bad VIKING pirate ship.

celebrated a dear friend's birthday at a buddy's house. pleasant surprise. great soulcalibur action. great 1-round mahjong. enjoyed it. wished to chat more with the girl in white.

basketball! great setpiece. thank you weiqing. made a few good baskets. pulled my left leg. injured AGAIN?!

chinatown.. midautumn festival lightup! saw some performance. felt the atmosphere. we saw the dance performance by bedok south sec sch again! the veiled energetic dance piece. made a new friend.

clarke quake. bumped around. slided into a retro pub. mocktails. like the feeling. good atmosphere. great live retro songs. good bartending. good music spun. great soccer. arsenal wigan 4 - 0.

what's pubbing without girls? found that despite really wanting to have fun and letting loose, i am still not loose. i didn't hit on girls. didn't have the confidence in the end. (eugene is probably right, i asked him would i succeed in hitting on girls. he said, "depends on your net. the wider net you cast ..., and depends on how desperate you are." think he was implying that everyone can get one but at the end of the day it just depends on the quality.

i do think ladies are sophisticated. that each and every is a tough rocher. beautiful and sweet to taste. but tough nut to crack in the inside.

basically i just thought the lady in pink is hot. just the right uninhibition. just the right smile. just the right confidence to stand out. just the right glances.

maybe (i do think too much).

maybe.

the game is the life

2009-09-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

let loose. different perspective.

time to let the strain loose. and the game sink in.

have a little fun.

know the problems. know what i need to do.
but i am not doing it. that's why i get stuck.
time to move to change the flow.

let the strain loose. and the game sink in.

if its not fun, don't do it.

kayak.
man and boat as one.

taekwondo.
legs not as an extension.
body not as an obstruction.
but as an entity.
swift in attack. swift in defence.
with a spring in step, and react.
swift and decisive. (armour)

A runner's dope

2009-09-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

Running is my dope.
But i had steered away from my passion for 2 months.
its time to plucker up the mizuno running shoes and be free.
NEW BALANCE RUN X-TRAIL RUN coming up.

NIKE HUMAN RACE =(

RUN FOR HOPE maybe =)

maybe we will born to run.

do not force, what is forced.
let go, and give breathing space, life's short, why give each other hell.

when clenched, you get two fists.
but if you relax, you can grasp anything in this world.

草莓牛奶糖

2009-09-18T22:10:00.004+08:00

i'm addicted to this 儿童歌曲：草莓牛奶糖
remembered i heard it on a children's show before, and the tune and purity of the song enraptured me since.
and i just heard it on capital95.8 and i was hooked.
but can't seem to find it anywhere online..
man, fine fine song. if you know.. please tell me.

Pouting

2009-09-17T16:38:00.003+08:00

something that i have been always curious about

the "orange peel" texture of your skin, these "popply" bumps are caused by your mentalis muscle. Your pouting muscle. -Chuck Palaniuk, Diary

Free-running

2009-08-21T14:36:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wonder if parkour is just

running on an
adrenaline high.

The feeling of abandonment
The ability to free-run not because you can.
Leap over places. Jump over seemingly high railings.
Not because its rehearsed.
But the body just wants to run when its feeding on adrenaline.

Indomitable.

Running the R-Cube run

2009-08-21T14:30:00.002+08:00

Supposedly Competitive run.
Didn't push as hard as i would have like.

Date/Venue: 10 Aug, Pasir Ris Park
Time Taken: 11 min 38 s 50 ss
Approx. Distance: 3km

Remarks:
Been rusty.
But still content with a run below the target i set for myself.

Got to run faster. Gasoline.

DREAMS ON FIRE

2009-08-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

Dreams are running so fast, as if they are on fire.. should i stay grounded and risk losing dreams or risk losing possibility of it not materializing at all? such a DILEMMA.

WANNABE FIGHTER.
WANNABE DRUMMER.
WANNABE DRIVER.
WANNABE COMMUNITY VOLUNTEER.
WANNABE DANCER.
WANNABE WRITER.
WANNABE CURRENT AFFAIRS ANALYST.
WANNABE CASH COW.

WANNABE WANNABE

hope i don' run out of steam.. do what's necessary. and not be fickle.

we got to hold on,
to what we got,
it doesn't matter if we make it or not
...

we got to hold on,
READY OR NOT
You live for the fight when its all that you've got
...

really life's a fight.
and we got to live for it like its all that we've got.

arrest the sloth!! sirens please!!
Adapted from Jon Bon Jovi - Livin' on a Prayer

For the fun of it

2009-08-06T12:55:00.048+08:00

Considering an open relationship

An open relationship is a relationship in which the participants are free to have emotional, spiritual and/or physical relationships with other partners. If the couple making this agreement are married, it is an open marriage. Open relationships are often confused for partnered non-monogamy in which only multiple sexual relationships are arranged with other partners.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Open_relationship

A casual relationship is a physical and emotional relationship between two people who may have a sexual relationship or a near-sexual relationship without necessarily demanding or expecting a more formal romantic relationship as a goal. ... Related terms are friends with benefits...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casual_relationship

it is not a wonder while many have turn to an open relationship.
the concept of being involved in a relationship yet not being anchored responsibilities-wise is an enticing concept for many.

we just wanna have fun and not force each other to commit yeah? its just a part-time effort on each party. or no effort at all. just call each other out when you would like a date. accompany-sake.

sex or no, fun's the calling.

in fact sex isn't even an important ingredient. its for the company, for the relationship experience, for the fun..

the casualness and deconstruction of traditional belief of what a relationship - commitment may be appalling to some. but face it, its very functional and feasible for this age of time.

Popular sex educator Tristan Taormino is also an advocate of open relationships.

not ruling out long-time commitment, commit only if you want to. we want democracy, we want freedom. this is it. it maybe miscontrued. or even less morally sound. it is even less congruent with "traditional society's standards". but..

it is a game. Just as J-Drama fans would have remembered from Takuya Kimura in Pride, its really just a game. Why not?

"its just a game"

In Malaysia, Are you Chinese?

2009-07-21T10:35:00.001+08:00

Excerpt from

In Malaysia, the question is finally asked: Are you Chinese?

By Shuzheng

More than anybody else, the former premier Mahathir Mohamad must bear responsibility for this racism, promoted in his pseudo social commentary, The Malay Dilemma where he virtually invented Malay grievances and directed them to the Chinese as the primary cause. This is racism par excellence because it mirrors the way Nazism pinned the problems of the entire German nation on the Jews.

http://mt.m2day.org/2008/content/view/24636/84/

Followup commentary soon

Discover the world

2009-06-21T17:52:00.002+08:00

Discover the world starts with small baby steps.
Spark off the Discover Singapore movement.
Starting with Culture.
I'll start by discovering and examining the cultures of the races in Singapore. =))

Culture
Chinese
Malay
Indian
Nation
History
Defence Force
Region
World
Music
Stamps
Sports
Science
Health
Arts
War

Step out and enjoy life. I'll try to provide scans of reports done of each visit. =)
till then..

Inaction and our youths

2009-06-08T21:11:00.003+08:00

To think or not to think
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/chronicle/opinion/vol15no10/p3.html
Digital Nanyang Chronicle: Vol. 15 no. 10

It is true. I personally observed and found it to be disheartening that i rarely find individuals talking "aggressively" about their passions, championing causes and doing things they lack. Things that they often cite are excuses, army lah where got time, study lah where got time, exams coming lah where got time, lazy lah where got time (oops its lazy lah whr . . .)

But conversations nowadays seem to centre more around work and studies. When we are already clocking like what, 9 hours a day? Maybe this is true, what the author Nabilah Bte Syed Sultan wrote

if you are more comfortable with the person you are conversing with, you are more likely to open up and speak about issues other than school. Conversation topics differ, however, when you are with acquaintances or with, to put it crudely, “friends for convenience”.

But even close friends seem to mumble about work or studies now.

Has life gotten boring?
Or have our youths forgotten about listening to their passions? Their dreams? Have they forgotten to take their ROADTRIP to discover the world? (courtesy of reading Roadtrip Nation)

Disillusioned, uncertain and wrapped by retarded layers of spoonfeeding for years, i fear that our youths are getting consumed by inaction. Already defence of their own passions seem to be taking on a losing battle over their conversations as the article would have proven.

Apathy. Inaction is a tempting consuming hand. But this is your own life.
This is your own run. You run it.

As Howard White, Vice Director of NIKE says, take the same passion you display when you head to the basketball courts (if you love basketball, i do so i can relate easily) as you would to life, if you love life and want to do well in it.

Its your life. Its your fight. Its your run.

Survival of the Fittest, not the locals

2009-06-08T20:53:00.004+08:00

Survival of the Fittest, not the locals
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/chronicle/opinion/vol15no10/p4.html
From Digital Nanyang Chronicle: Vol. 15 No. 10

As Darwinian's theory has proven, it truly is the survival of the fittest.
Despite being perturbed by the overwhelming surge in foreigners (observe that a MRT cabin holds 60 % foreigners), it truly is survival of the fittest. Now what comes into question, is a realist attitude of efficiency, cost, attitudes of workers rather than race, nationality.

Note that, the government is not able to turn a blind eye to civilians' woes at unemployment of unsatisfactory employment (its bad for the polls if they do adopt the realist way of thinking), but there really is a limit to what they can do. Protect the locals and what? Lose everything Singapore has build since birth? Do not forget that Singapore is a village grounded in cosmopolitan roots from the times of our forefathers.

Much as it disheartens me to say this, it is the truth, perform or pack up. Eat or get eaten.

Survival of the fittest, not the locals
Do not blame the government for not doing their part to reserve university places or jobs for you. Examine yourself if you have work hard enough to deserve that job. Work till the job needs you more than you need it. That's the modern day job security. Its not your years of service or your nationality that counts now.

Some may say, that it is easy for me to say this because i am detached. But this is essentially the truth. The reality hurts. Hurts me too. Golden ricebowls are getting increasingly invisible nowadays. But then again, Singapore has always used the meritocratic approach.

Does making a discount this time by disregarding meritocratic roots and making a concession for locals really help? As a passionate community-conscious individual i hope so, but history has taught me otherwise.

Think again.
Sad, but true
Its Survival of the fittest, not the locals

Running in the Evening

2009-06-08T18:52:00.001+08:00

48 minutes run.
Start: 6 00 pm
End: 6: 47: 59: 65
Distance (approx) : 6 km

Jogging at night

2009-06-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

Feeling lethargic after not running for a week, i embark on my "religious" routine of donning my saucony "fbt-like" shorts and singlet, tying my shoe laces and jog out into the night.

I started at 7 02. And reminded myself to not succumb to the temptation of breaking out into a high-tempo run. Jog, jog jog was my motive today. Nothing but a slow relaxing constant pacing jog today.

More importantly, i tried to put a new learning into action today. At the library earlier, i had chanced upon a quote.

"Don't pack a lot. You never need as much as you bring. Live life simply so you can pick up and move onto your next adventure."

All my life, i realized i have been packing way too much. Whether it be literally, into my bags. Be it school bags, outing, field pack, i have been packing way too much. Mentally, i have been packing too much too. Worrying about things that are unnecessary. That has caused me to develop an anxiety problem. A result of packing way too much mentally unnecessarily. My focus has been wrong all along.Worrying about the wrong things. Pre-occupying myself with irrelevant retarded thoughts. Crushes. Ha, a joke.

Packing too much unnecessarily.

These are all baggage. And i need to throw them away and focus on simply the thing at hand. This time round, the jog. So that, i can move uninhibited into the next phase. A sort of ruthless efficiency and being uninhibited.

Uninhibited way of living.

So i jog. And jog. And jog. Many times i caught the urge to up my tempo and break out into an accelerated jog to match these people sprinting past me. But for what use.

I run my own run. Life is again about running your own run.

So i jog. And jog. Till 1 hr 59 min later. In between, using 64 minutes to clock 8.8 km. Total distance averages around > 12 km. End of run 9 pm. Sky's dark. Stomach's growling. Legs are numb.

The feeling's great. Running uninhibitedly. Running without a sense of time. Running without holding back.

Of course, the sore legs and the dread of waking up tomorrow with numbness and pai-ka-ness. Walking with a little limb. Pai-ka-chu.

But i'll jog more. Increasing the mileage. Increasing the joy. Running my own run. Leaving all baggage. Running Yi Feng's run!

Guess who's back

2009-06-06T22:44:00.001+08:00

Guess who's back
Back again
Yi Feng's back
Back again

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HELLO EVERYONE

What happens when a heart gets frozen?

2009-04-19T01:40:00.001+08:00

BLEAKORY?

2009-04-19T01:37:00.003+08:00

The heart is frozen.
The world seems cold.
Apathy's real.
World's losing ground.

A limb a time.
A cell a second.
A-wash and gone.
The world seems cold.

The wallet is empty.
The urn is bleak.
With nothing to give
The world seems cold.

Numbers are falling.
Children are dying.
The world seems cold.
If we do as so.

written 17 - 04 - 09
17 16 21
Yi Feng

Virgin Clubii

2009-03-15T08:28:00.002+08:00

whoa yeah i'm BACK! after such a long parting.
N S has been tough sweet and bitter all at once.

but the important thing is that P O P looooooooooo.
And naturally the lessons that OC Sir, PS GAN, PC Sir and SGTs thought us.

So i went for my maiden CLUBing @ ZOUK. (fri mambo night)
man the whole process was apprehensive mixed with crazy dancing.
didn't i can dance like that mad ;P
but okay i'm a good boy haha
didn't "CHAT" with any ladies
and yeah this should counted as a good experience

will there be a next one?
yonder year maybe.
long long long time away
hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

VOOM PORTRAITS musing

2008-12-30T01:06:00.004+08:00

VOOM POTRAITS
by Robert Wilson
at the National Museum of Singapore
30 Oct 08 - 04 Jan 09
10 am - 6 pm DAILY

welcome to VOOM Potraits!

Princess Caroline of Monaco
This is the only photo that struck me greatly at the wonderful innuendos played up by this mysterious Princess, enough to warrant a detailed entry of my feelings and thoughts when i enjoyed this artpiece.

first the image of a lady with a back facing the audience is a representation of female confidence in this 21st Century where equality of sexes have become the norm then the exception. its a figure of female empowerment and individuality in a world of her own.
secondly, the image of a lady with a changing shadow "lightplay" as in the figure will grow to exude just the silhouette and then the figure above before transiting towards a fading shadow, epitomizes one of mystery. the modern lady is empowered and mysterious. her world is complex and unfathomable to those who dare to get around her brick wall exterior of mystery.
thirdly, the tinkering lady with her batting eyelashes and subconscious finger-pointing seems to invite me to think that she's a lady of the rapidly changing 21st century. and she has to put up with the pained experiences despite her status. her thoughts seem to have drifted to love and relationships .
lastly, and i think the most obvious of all. The empowered, smart super modern lady is inviting. And it seems to suggest loneliness simultaneously. The flashing slit on her back which grows to become the most prominent capture (once your eyes is transfixed on the image for a long time) is alluring and inviting. it seems to suggest that the lady is inviting us into her world. her depths. to try fathoming a pit less "hole" ..
overall, this is a grand piece of Reassurance of the Modern Lady.

Mikhail Baryshinikov
Gods of our time.
Apocalypse.
Greek Gods suffering.
Black Blood - poetic humour. poison of mortals.

disaster pop culture. how we are clowns in our efforts at entertainment.
daily clowns.

Porcupine. by Boris.
loneliness in a galaxy. no one understand the porcupine's hurt. creature of hurt. a creature yearning for comfort but forever a forbidden fruit. "expanding and relaxing" spikes remind me of the repeating up and downs of every relationship. piercing eyes seem to penetrate one's soul and speak a tongue of forlorn and that of yearning to be wanted which quickly evaporates to one of anger- rejection.

Isabella Huppert, 2005.
a picture of fatigue. exasperation to life. and a plea for help.
mainly an expression of fatigue. not exhaustion. just tiredness whether its due to apathy etc.
Lady Isabella's veins aren't exactly being strained in the photo which encourage me to make this interpretation.

Panther. by Ivory.
a picture of sadness. pained eyes. twitching eyes and moving ears denote a panther's alertness and distrust in a world of suspicion.
amir and i joke that the panther would make a good poster-boy for SPCA / animal cruelty.

I thought this Queen look pretty sullen. and despondent. there's fleeting focus and it portrays a picture of distraction to me. it represents a "multi-tasking bad habit" of the modern generation where we have a thousand and one things and a quadriple of gadgets to juggle at any one instant. it seems to suggest to me a picture of distraction.

Champion Sumo. Bjamla Ulambayar.

somehow i couldn't help but wonder if the texture of the velvet hot pink background and the play of lights (to extentuate the tone of the sumo's prized body) has any further interpretation.
the existent-non existent smile seems to project Mr. Sumo as an affable but man of strict unwavering resolve.

Robert Downey Jr.
gross. mechanical wonder/sawing off of a hand.
the unwavering resolve of a man even in crisis. (how often do we see this?)
is it apathy? or a sweet surrender? or is it bravado?

Steve Buscemi.
gross. somehow i don't quite grasp this.
there's a few stuff at play here.
1) blazing red meat
2) greenish evilish glow
3) smeared blood
4) change of countenance (seriousness to relaxed stance)
5) weird smile (lunatic-like)
6) tapping of feet.
7) cold sterile environment.

ultimately, if i have to fix a theme to this, i would denote it as THE CHANGING REACTIONS of a GREENISH SURGEON.

Brad Pitt.

a figure of the male physique.
a justified sex symbol.

the control of the splattering rain.
Brad's way of holding the gun.
elevation from a non-threatening way to a murderous slant.

eye candy.
too much skin?
the modern entertainment industry. a case of baring too much? wearing too little?

Johnny Depp.
a case of ruggedness?
an outlook of cynicism.
a picture of CONTEMPT.
notice Depp's little pinkie is painted black. AMIR reminded me.
wonder if that hides any connotation?

Alan Cumming.
A misfit.
A discomforting metrosexual.

hairy hands and legs in female drabs. - metrosexual
contorted smile/frown - Heath Ledger's Joker manical smile.
eating chocolate - picture of enjoyment/comfort.

this picture has me questioning.
is all our enjoyment and fashion sense, and more importantly,
our sensibilities a facade?
a tribute to subscribed tastes.
that we trick ourselves into believing that there's enjoyment amidst pain.
countless misfits of social trends which shouldn't but have blended into society.
are our sensibilities a tricked-out mainstream conformed interpretations?

Zhang Huan, 2004.

the stern cold stare of a JUDGEMENT ANGEL in a heavenly setting.
the flitting butterflies on the man denote the flitting and scarce concept of "redemption".
of how close we are to treading the line between right and wrong.

INTERPRETATIONs. PERCEPTIONs.
these are what i have humbly shared over here.
they are not by any means representative of what Robert Wilson has to convey.
and please please fearlessly point out to me where my interpretation may have veered away from the crucial.
or where i have failed to interpret the pieces.

INTERPRETATIONs. PERCEPTIONs.

SUPERB MUSEUM TRIP!

2008-12-30T00:43:00.002+08:00

hi hi!! i went to the National Museum of Singapore.
and its really amazinggggg except for the "Singapore history" part. a major part of my disdain was due to the (excessive in my opinion) info-loaded "COMPANION" in the Singapore History Gallery.

but nonetheless i was thrilled today by the exhibits (external)!

1) The Chain of Chang Chien-Chi struck me emotionally.
the concept of human beings chained up for their everyday life (especially those of lower mental capability) isn't going to be appealing to anyone anytime soon. but as quoted "where the more lucid one drag the other around. through meals, and daily.. the treatment by XXX temple proved to be effective" i don't know seriously. is this going to work out? i leave you as a judge.

2) Double Happiness of Chang Chien-Chi struck me deeply about the process where foreign brides leave everything behind and marry to a stranger.
The delight of brides. The sourness of brides. The sorrow of abandonment. The "lusty" eyes of the groom. Somehow Chang managed to play up a feeling of forlorn and victimhood in me in some of the brides featured. The process, the acquiring and the marriage - beyond is unbelievably depressing and lonely for some brides.

3) China Town of Chang Chien-Chi reminded me of the hardships that immigrants have to face. and just not so long ago, our forefathers - grandfathers had to dock at a new land "Nanyang-Singapore" to begin a new life in a stranger land. just as these illegal labourers have to set foot in US anew and without kin. As quoted i think that Chang's quote entirely represent the immigrants feelings. Although this weren't his entire words, the meaning conveyed is roughly equal. "Between the colour (photos) and the black and white is interminable waiting - sometimes neither party know when it has stopped."

4) VOOM Potraits by Robert Wilson is highly entertaining.
As a "still-photo" Wilson has entirely opened up my mind to perceiving.
" i do not interpret my work. Interpretation is for others. To fix a meaning to a work limits its poetry and the possibility of other ideas. They are personal, poetic statements of different personalities."

With this, i'm going to attempt to detail my observation and musing for each artpiece in my first try at photoblogging. haha.. please enjoy.

"what's the point?"

2008-12-29T11:34:00.000+08:00

inconsiderable apathy.

recently i've been chancing upon this phrase "what's the point" repeatedly.
i must admit i have sometimes been wont to using it too..
like "what's the point? there's not going to be a happy ending out of it."
then most often than not, we leave it hanging. and not attempt the stuff that we feel is "futile".

more importantly, i feel this reflects a social rot among us. in that this is actually a variation of apathy.
1) it may start with a perception that things have a low possibility of materializing.
2) it quickly promotes to entire "lock-in" and denial even when friends express their encouragement. (more and more so, i observed that when friends express their encouragement, people are quicker to withdraw..)
3) it winds up in ABANDONMENT. of the idea. of a concept. of creativity.
we end up sticking to our regular lives and pass off another groundbreaking possibility of breaking the monotone.

is it a social rot? is anyone going to do anything about changing it?
or is it going to be another "what's the point" ending?

hmmm.. i have been thinking about what to erode away this apathy that's been massacring our youths and myself included.. but i've hit a wall.. and do throw something at me so we can have a exchange on this.

NMS TODAY! =))

2008-12-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

so gonna visit a museum today!! excited! haha.. think i'll be solo-in this.
sometimes when appreciating arts i wonder if a 2nd voice would be better (for discussion and diff perspective's sake)
but when left to one's own peace, i believe that this is when i can freely and unabashedly envision and visualize and maybe hopefully interpret art accurately.. (actually there's no right or wrong here, accurate just means getting what the artist wanted to convey)
SO ITS TO THE NATIONAL MUSEUM OF SINGAPORE TODAY! =))

*blistered legs*injuries*bruises*

Christmas dayyy

2008-12-25T12:40:00.000+08:00

Its CHRISTMAS BASKETBALL DAY today!
haha i woke up and played some ball.
practiced my shots rebounding pivots and basically have fun.

but what mostly turn ME OFF is this bugger.
he's a kid for the most record. just 12 years old. ask me for a match.
and i'm like coolll.. i'm not going to lose another 1 on 1. after losses to Shu Li and Kayan.
i'll begin my record with you..

turns out i have to ask him to DEFEND ME?! WTH.. hello you are leaving me open all the way to take shots? not that i am going to mind, then pls don't complain that i blow past you, not giving you a chance. that's just spoilt pls!! so i did, scoring layups and post hooks easily. the score is 5 -0 easily, when
BOY: nooo noo no what are we doing?
ME: we're having a match.
BOY: anddddd..?
ME: 5 - 0
BOY: you zero? HAAHAHAHAHAHAA you zero and he broke down onto the floor laughing..
ME: WT.. no. i 5 you zero.
BOY: nooooo i zero i'm going to lose.. nooo.. i didn't know we are having a match
ME: (EXASPERATED) OKAY, let's start from 0 -0 again. your ball first.

and naturally he fired all air balls and my ball is really light. haizz..
okay so i said check.. (turns out he didn't know what a match means what he challenge me in the first place..) and he threw the ball away from me with all his might. WTH?!
okay patience. tolerance. patience. and since it was my turn to attack.. i didn't even run..
and he's like wait wait wait when i fired and got the bucket.
ME: WHAT?!
BOY: wwhy you keep getting the ball in..
ME: isn't this a match?
BOY: butttt..
ME: you got to defend me. give me pressure. lock me in. reduce my angles.
BOY: ? (seriously i see a ? on his face)
ME: okay let me show you (and so i basically explained to him the basics of defence. get between your man and the basket. always stationed yourself there ...)
ME: you get it..?
BOY: okay!!
ME: my turn to attack now. ( by now its 4 -0)

he left me open nonetheless. think my words fell on deaf ears. and he doesn't defend. dosen't challenge me for rebounds. i consecutively caught 5 rebounds just to provoke him into coming in and challenge for the ball. but.. naturally he doesn't.
By now, i'm exasperated. i'll go for the kill.
and i did. shot straight to 9-0.
he wanted to play first to 20. but i managed to cut to first to 11. heng ah.. otherwise i think i would really have lost. get killed by his antics and disrespect. (e.g. after shooting a ball, he did a split. the ball didn't went in of course.)
ME: 2 more balls to my win.
ME: you gonna come up and defend me?
BOY: noo.. i'm going to stand here. (under the post)
ME: okay.. you know i'm going to win right?
BOY: what?? i thought i was?
ME: no. 2 more balls. that's it.. okay i'm coming..
swishh---

ME: 10 -0 check. (bounce the ball to him)
BOY: (he got the ball..) okay i surrender. i'll sstand here. CHECK BACK.
and he hurled the ball away from my direction with all his strength such that it bounced past the other half of the court into the woods..
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
and he just broke down on the ground laughing all the way. haha screaming "you're so lousy"
with that, i walked to pick up my ball. its a wonder i'm still keep my outburst under check.
and he laughs. and laughs. and laughs even louder.
until i raised my middle finger with my back towards him.

I came back. and without even checking just shot a jumper. and i said, got to go.
11-0 end game.

MAN, this kid really got to grow up..
I believe he still has a lot of room to grow. but that attitude? i just don't dig it.
is he a lunatic or eccentric fool? check by throwing MY BALL to the woods?! and laugh and say i am lousy.
but seriously this is a crazy world we live in.

well.. all the pent up frustration is let out.. haaaa.. =))
MERRY CHRISTMAS. and i am looking forward to CHRISTMAS BALLin with my brothers at gang cot at 3.
so till then =))

The Fourth Ramble - Religious rumble

2008-12-25T01:29:00.000+08:00

Hiiii i'm back from the church. the house of god.
and i learn 3 lessons today.
ibut first i met a really cute spontaneous pretty girl today!! wow cool dress sense. and filial to her mom. and she sits in front of me in the church.. hahahaha but that's beside the point..
really, i'm awash with friendliness and spirituality today.
this church-going experience is really a fresh and stimulating experience. but remind me on some of the lessons i have to further learn..

Forgive me if any righteous friends reading this post is offended by my light-hearted comments on these lessons on faith. Please do. i'm a greenhorn.

So to the lessons i have learn today:

1) "I'm a sinner."
The pastor nearly shouted in my face, "Yi Feng, are you a SINNER? Tell me."
This is a combination of the discussion i had with my senior nic and the pastor.
PASTOR: If you are going to die tomorrow, and Jesus ask you if you're going to heaven or hell, which will you be going. Its not that wow you came to the church today, so welcome to heaven.
NIC: NOOoo, you got to be spotless, in order to enter heaven.
ME: So dalmations and zebras can't go to heaven?
S I L E N C E
haha that's beside the point.
So yeah, i have sin terribly. But isn't that life?

FRIEND: Yes, he (me) has sinned terribly. He's one of the greatest sinners! He keeps beo-in girls.
PASTOR: No, i won'tgive him that title. I'm.

So yes, i have sinned by looking at that pretty girl sitting in front of me during church.
SINNER. First let me clarify. i'm not exactly a fan of people shouting "YOU'RE A SINNER. SINNER. SINNER. SINNER." in my face. tmd.

To think is to have done.
The act of hatred, "i hate XXXXX" is to have murder.
To think of touching a woman is to have already have sex with her.
To think of sleeping with a married woman is to have commit adultery. (PASTOR)
To think is to do.
All you masturbaters out there, YOU'RE SO DEAD, SINNER!! Haha, just a joke just a joke.
To think is to have done.
In this way, we easily accumulate mountains of sin in a single day.
How can we be spotless (in order to go heaven) then?
MY point, isn't this "to think is to have done" thing taking it a little too far?

I believe i'm no saint.
I have definitely sinned.
But i don't entirely agree with the concept.

One more thing, what about non-believers, i ask.
PASTOR: if you have not heard about the GOSPELS, then there's still another way of going to heaven. there's this concept of human conscience. (this i totally agree) if you ... (he ramble on and on about examples here but let me summ) abide by your conscience - the one law governing your life, then you will and can be spotless. God can forgive you and invite you to the realm of peace.
ME: But what if you have heard?
PASTOR: if you have heard and not give the word, then you go the other way. ... (from here on, he was a picture of erratic disbelief on why someone would not be a son of god believe in the religion take the faith) who, YI FENG, WHO WILL EVER SACRIFICE THAT MUCH FOR YOU? TELLL ME!! TELL ME! (agitation)
ME: err.. (you want me to say no one, except God, yeah but i shall keep quiet)

From here onwards, no offence to believers of faith.
I strongly believe i won't give the word join a fratenity subscribe to a school of thought, just because i want to escape hell and go heaven. or just because i want to remove the label of a sinner. that's so not my belief! i'm not going to be a hypocrite. No offence.
I firmly patted my heart and thought to myself while i was enjoying my ice-cream treat. that God or beliefs lies here.

i believe i'll embrace God one day. be it Chinese god. Muslim god. God. Indian God. or whichever. i refer to a faith. but first our ideals must be aligned.. i'm surely willing to compromise. but it musn't be too far-fetched.
and as proven today, i have been ushered to the other extreme which explains my hesistance.
after all, i believe its a matter of interpretation. INTERPRETATION.

we're but mortals. sins are but our traits.
hypocrite i'm not.
so my faith should not be a lie.
from where my beliefs hearth
i'll interpret so that i can and
i'll fathom the omnipotence.
slowly but surely..

2) POP (Portable Omnipotence Presence)
God is all around us. God with us. Emmanuel.

Matthew 1:23
Behold, a virgin shall be with child, and shall bring forth a son, and they call his name Emmanuel, which being interpreted is, God with us.
Is this what POP is all about?
Somehow, i believe and am very optimistic that this aspect of belief will be undoubtedly useful in our school of 21st century. where everyone zoomed past everyone. where everyone juggle 3 or more devices at one time. where hustle and bustle is the way of life.

The warmness and closeness of God or the concept of Emmanuel is comforting and convenient.
But this is where my concern lies, is God really that portable? Like my PSP. my faith. or do i have to visit a church, a place of worship to be close to God?
It makes it all really convenient doesn't it? But is this really what we want? IS God lost through this convenience?

This will be sometime bogging my mind.. hmmm.. perhaps i think too much.
DEACON: those that we can't grasp, let's leave it to when we go to heaven.. (these aren't his exact words but the meaning is there)
Really? what you don't think and leave it and bury it that your faith will answer, means that you will never fathom anything. half-baked isn't going to cut it, does it? Answerless questions may exist. the question of faith usually is one. but if we are not going to try to fathom it, no progress will ever be made, can it?

3) God is your source of courage.
CHERYL: Since God is with us (Emmanuel), there is no reason to be afraid.

Convenient isn't it? Doesn't courage come from within? Detractors may say i'm talking big here, that courage comes from within. Yes, i do believe that during times of crisis or trauma, the leap of faith and hence courage and strength many times do come from "save me God, pleaseee" or "save me, MOM!!". But true courage i wonder, doesn't it come from within? Such that no flicker of fear darts in your eyes when facing a problem. I'm not thattt courageous, but i question.
To this, i think a quote from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho really cuts the picture nicely.

"People need not fear the unknown, if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."

The Alchemist

Perhaps this is what i lack seriously in my fight. I'm a fighter. i'll seek to humbly learn and master more martial arts. But in order to seriously conquer the flicker of fear in my eyes during a sparring practice or tournie and regain the AGGRESSION that i fearlessly displayed in my attacks 6 years ago, i believe its this. If i truly am capable of achieving what i need and want. This is when determination and commitment to training kicks in. Re-teach yourself. Like Batman in KNIGHTFALL when he wore the Man Bat mask and retrain under SHIVA. I HAVE A LOT TO LEARM!!

AaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.. i feel so much more relieved after clearing my head.
What do you think? Please enlighten me with your replies.
I believe people truly learn during fruitful exchanges. Different opinions open up different outlets in my flawed interpretation.
Please, thank you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! And thanks to Nic and Cheryl for bringing me to the church and opening up my mind.
No offence regarding the stuff i discuss here. i seek your forgiveness if you find anything insulting. thank you and MERRILY CHRISTMAS!!

Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer
had a very shiny nose.
And if you would ever saw him,
You would even say it glows.
...

Cheryl here's your christmas carol. with dedication. MErRy CHRISTMAS!

Bye bye and Good night!

Checking in - MERRY CHRISTMAS

2008-12-25T01:26:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas!!
I tried to be a good boy this year. hope i'll have pressies in my stockings!!
haha. i went to a CHURCH for the first time in my life! and its on 24th Dec!
wow i enjoyed the experience.. will check in again for my latest "religious" ramble pertaining to this exp soon..
Meanwhile have a Messy Christmas!

The Third Ramble - Lessons on honesty #2

2008-12-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

A lie churns a lie. Before you know it you're habitually lying.

White lies are still lies.

Lies are mainly either psychological excuses to make up for the insecurities most have.
Like an OL lying about possessions in order not to be despised by a friend of higher social standing.

Most fears are unfounded. Most lies are redundant.

The worst form of lies is to deceive everyone else and yourself.

Stay true to your heart and you will find where the treasure is.
A Lesson from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

The Third Ramble - Lessons on honesty

2008-12-24T10:47:00.000+08:00

Those who lie will eventually tell the truth.
Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO Drama)

Followup Ramble - Unfathomable fears, so why worry?

2008-12-24T10:45:00.000+08:00

"People need not fear the unknown, if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Followup Ramble - Let's talk about love #2

2008-12-24T10:44:00.001+08:00

It is mainly because they are afraid to do so. With a wealth of fears of a thousand other things which will most likely not surface in their lifetime.

Followup Ramble - Let's talk about love

2008-12-24T10:42:00.000+08:00

People in the 21st century do not give away their love that easily.

The Second Ramble - Let's talk about love

2008-12-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

haha hiii i'm back. i am gonna try to make an effort to be FAITHFUL (lol) to this blog. yeah going to try to pen down my thoughts and discuss some topics once in a few days. haha! forgive me if you think this is crass, feel free to leave then ;P

okay let's talk about love #1 - ladies.
just got back from bballing =)) wow i bury quite a few hooks in the game!! i shock even myself. haha yeah my first triumph in a 6 - 6 game in a long long time. lol gonna keep up my tough d.
yes basketball is my love. one of many. but let's discuss a little of more tangible stuff like ladies.

i'm going to confess my eyes are not the most loyal creature. they are like honey bees which flit around spontaneously from one eye candy to another. and naturally during my course of "honey bee working" i ahve picked out a few really great ladies who have umm melted my heart? i mean i am not just a looks-kind of guy. and i believe most people aren't. heart. character. all those..

yeah but there is really this lady. not gonna name who.. of course. the girl's privacy is of top priority. that's always my policy. haha (learn this from GREAT TEACHER ONIZUKA) she's pretty and all (some friends would say she look normal) but yeah maybe its because of the person that i saw for who she is, that i think she is really wonderful. she's herself. the true her. lol lest i break into a ramble (againn?!), let me continue. she's someone i could really relate to. but sad to say, i don't think i'll keep up any continuation. its probably just some invisible difference and tight schedules but.. sigh.. she's a friend (must get this clear first not anything special else yet lol)

okay. so let's talk about love. enough about sharing personal details.
this buddy was encouraging me saying. take it slowly. give the friendship time to simmer and blossom into a relationship. others have been poking in over recent periods saying "you can de la" haha. i appreciate it greatly. but i would withdraw all the same. somehow it doesn't feel right. maybe its the insecurity of "rejection", "that things won't work out" and most importantly "that i would lose a great friend that she is". already i hate the way great friendships go to waste when this tingly "crush" feeling pops up at the peak of great exchange. (most people do. already i have seen some friends suffer the same fate) Don't get me wrong, she's still the wonderful girl i envision and believe but somehow there's just a nagging feeling about incompatible lifestyles and feelings. conversation and open talk i think and hope will still be preserved after this encounter. in fact, i feel much lighter, that despite anything, i had made an effort, and hopefully a great friendship is still in the docks.

the list on the agenda that i direly wanted to share and bring up is regarding this: i hate the way perhaps i'm letting a great chance at a beautiful relationship slip by. and i wonder in life, sometimes how many actual chances do you have "for slipping by". ladies have spent eternities looking for Mr. Right and end up being old spinisters. men have cast nets to rake in a wonderful 10/10 lady and end up being termed "more nicely" diamond-studded bachelors. but the point is, a mischance and an eternity and lifetime of regret. we are riding on the wave of youth and vigour now, but crucially i have heard many friends or read blogs detailing this. their darkest fear. the notion of just grabbing someone to spend your life with for life jsut because you don't want to be single, is just blahh plain desperation.

with this i question,
how many mischances do we really have?
how many people do actually feel this as their darkest fear? of desolation and singlehood for life.
how can we measure a gem, the right one?

share about your mischances as well, i'm all ears and hopefully there are still more chances.
to find someone you can relate, talk to, bicker with and come out stronger with is tough.

with that' i leave it at this a high note of muzzling questions that i hope would garner huge responses.

let's talk about love #2
Parental Love.
i had a mild discussion with my mom today about "obedience - meeting parents' expectations - love". usually our discussion always end up in high-octane tiffing heat. haha.
yes. i believe most parents may have this conception.

"you are eating my rice."
"i'm sacrificing so much for you, it makes it only logical that you meet my expectations and wants."
"i require you to abide by this dress sense. to speak this way. to be OBEDIENT!"
"it's all for your own good, ah boy/girl!"

somehow, much as i want to be Confucian-blessed filial, the above are not what i generally agree upon. for one, i don't believe meeting enforced expectations reflect mutual love. rather i believe its the common understanding of what the child loves/ pursue and how the parents either display support/ give the kid free room to experiment even though they disapprove, that will make operation and mutual love more reasonable.
of course i'm not saying that, we should like children try vices like wanton gambling and abusive alcoholic drinking or even chain-smoking habitually.
please we are living in a 21st century, your child is not your playdoll. and you certainly are and should not be a ventriloquist.
liberation rights and freedom is a topic for another day. but being hell-bent on enforcement and kicking up a fit when your child is not meeting your expectations is an utter depravement of not just freedom but the choice to choose and a folly. i believe everyone have their own development path and they would forge a blazing route. that's a staunch belief of mine. i understand parents' concern in helping their kids forge an easier and more sheltered path. its no wonder many can't stand up to criticism and manipulate the school's weakness in not being able deliver crippling comments and blows by doing more audacious "climbing over the head of school" acts.
all in all, parental love is sacredly noble. and i salute every parent for that.
but reprociating love, does not just come in meeting your high expectations.

What do you think?

and i want to learn LOCKING!! omg

The First Ramble - Desolation

2008-12-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

Desolation.
Have you ever wondered why we have grown more diverged when we are mired in a greater net of connectivity? makes me wonder if it all is just a mere facade.
networking websites. rise of pubs/clubs. social gatherings on the up ante. why are we more alone? why are we more separated? why are we more distant..

probably the reason why all the emo shit is on the rise as well.

Born in a cocoon
Reapin at the seams
Reeks a futile action
Encouraging withdrawal

A man's puzzle at the self-inflicted wound
Strands himself further in a-nother realm
Such that all is desolation and separation
Leaving everyone bare-naked at a crossroad.

Foreword

2008-12-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

Welcome my friend. AFter years of hiding and "posing" i have decided to come clean and yeahh this blog will be one that will keep track of topics and musings which has struck a vibe in me to discuss and publish.

First and foremost, you will see a lot of questioning and much less answering! whoa! i'll disclose this it has always been my inner most carnal wish to be a writer. a journalist. someone whose words could change something.. So this will be my dance floor my platform to jiggle jingle salsa with words and thoughts.

Feel free to leave comments on topics i ramble about. It has always been my belief that only through exchanges can i stimulate and construct my thoughts better or even achieve breakthroughs together.. so please.. feel free to belt out comments off your chest! =))

musings

The power of feminism - Can ageless love exist?

The Escape Art's Philosophy

Policy Change – S. Korea turn of attitude

Rearing a child is expensive, mothers have it tougher.

"privates" are extremely useful

Nightswimming - I'm not sure all these people understand.

Litigation - how you see it?

1 Apr

24 Feb - contorted Black Black Heart

6 Feb - how would a martial artist think?

30 Jan

10 Jan

27 Dec

9 Dec

5 Dec - 5 Pressure Points To Relieve Body Discomforts

Stop an Attack from Behind with Pressure Points

1 Nov

26 Nov

26 Nov

24 Nov

21 Nov

6 Nov

6 Nov

3 Nov - They don't really care about us.

31 Oct - Halloween Run

24 Oct

22 Oct

17 Oct

På promenad genom stan - Per Gessle

14 Oct

12 Oct

9 Oct

8 Oct

7 Oct - free and affirmed

7 Oct

why go

5 Oct

Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnn RimesHär Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle

Här Kommer Alla Känslorna

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gångHere are all the emotions at the same time

William Shakespeare's As You Like It

All the world's a stage,

4 Oct

3 Oct

Does this imply service draws boys away from childhood?

debt

30 Sep

Claudia Jung - JE T'AIME MON AMOUR

born to run

a burning heart

off technique

flawed

the brain runs

acknowledging

english tea

a summer song

me

my idea of a fun-packed day

the game is the life

A runner's dope

草莓牛奶糖

Pouting

Free-running

Running the R-Cube run

DREAMS ON FIRE

For the fun of it

In Malaysia, Are you Chinese?

Discover the world

Inaction and our youths

Survival of the Fittest, not the locals

Running in the Evening

Jogging at night

Guess who's back

What happens when a heart gets frozen?

BLEAKORY?

Virgin Clubii

VOOM PORTRAITS musing

SUPERB MUSEUM TRIP!

"what's the point?"

Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnn Rimes
Här Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Here are all the emotions at the same time