VOOM PORTRAITS musing

VOOM POTRAITS
by Robert Wilson
at the National Museum of Singapore
30 Oct 08 - 04 Jan 09
10 am - 6 pm DAILY

welcome to VOOM Potraits!

Princess Caroline of Monaco
This is the only photo that struck me greatly at the wonderful innuendos played up by this mysterious Princess, enough to warrant a detailed entry of my feelings and thoughts when i enjoyed this artpiece.

• first the image of a lady with a back facing the audience is a representation of female confidence in this 21st Century where equality of sexes have become the norm then the exception. its a figure of female empowerment and individuality in a world of her own.
• secondly, the image of a lady with a changing shadow "lightplay" as in the figure will grow to exude just the silhouette and then the figure above before transiting towards a fading shadow, epitomizes one of mystery. the modern lady is empowered and mysterious. her world is complex and unfathomable to those who dare to get around her brick wall exterior of mystery.
• thirdly, the tinkering lady with her batting eyelashes and subconscious finger-pointing seems to invite me to think that she's a lady of the rapidly changing 21st century. and she has to put up with the pained experiences despite her status. her thoughts seem to have drifted to love and relationships .
• lastly, and i think the most obvious of all. The empowered, smart super modern lady is inviting. And it seems to suggest loneliness simultaneously. The flashing slit on her back which grows to become the most prominent capture (once your eyes is transfixed on the image for a long time) is alluring and inviting. it seems to suggest that the lady is inviting us into her world. her depths. to try fathoming a pit less "hole" ..
• overall, this is a grand piece of Reassurance of the Modern Lady.

Mikhail Baryshinikov
Gods of our time.
Apocalypse.
Greek Gods suffering.
Black Blood - poetic humour. poison of mortals.

disaster pop culture. how we are clowns in our efforts at entertainment.
daily clowns.

Porcupine. by Boris.
loneliness in a galaxy. no one understand the porcupine's hurt. creature of hurt. a creature yearning for comfort but forever a forbidden fruit. "expanding and relaxing" spikes remind me of the repeating up and downs of every relationship. piercing eyes seem to penetrate one's soul and speak a tongue of forlorn and that of yearning to be wanted which quickly evaporates to one of anger- rejection.

Isabella Huppert, 2005.
a picture of fatigue. exasperation to life. and a plea for help.
mainly an expression of fatigue. not exhaustion. just tiredness whether its due to apathy etc.
Lady Isabella's veins aren't exactly being strained in the photo which encourage me to make this interpretation.

Panther. by Ivory.
a picture of sadness. pained eyes. twitching eyes and moving ears denote a panther's alertness and distrust in a world of suspicion.
amir and i joke that the panther would make a good poster-boy for SPCA / animal cruelty.

I thought this Queen look pretty sullen. and despondent. there's fleeting focus and it portrays a picture of distraction to me. it represents a "multi-tasking bad habit" of the modern generation where we have a thousand and one things and a quadriple of gadgets to juggle at any one instant. it seems to suggest to me a picture of distraction.

Champion Sumo. Bjamla Ulambayar.

somehow i couldn't help but wonder if the texture of the velvet hot pink background and the play of lights (to extentuate the tone of the sumo's prized body) has any further interpretation.
the existent-non existent smile seems to project Mr. Sumo as an affable but man of strict unwavering resolve.

Robert Downey Jr.
gross. mechanical wonder/sawing off of a hand.
the unwavering resolve of a man even in crisis. (how often do we see this?)
is it apathy? or a sweet surrender? or is it bravado?


Steve Buscemi.
gross. somehow i don't quite grasp this.
there's a few stuff at play here.
1) blazing red meat
2) greenish evilish glow
3) smeared blood
4) change of countenance (seriousness to relaxed stance)
5) weird smile (lunatic-like)
6) tapping of feet.
7) cold sterile environment.

ultimately, if i have to fix a theme to this, i would denote it as THE CHANGING REACTIONS of a GREENISH SURGEON.

Brad Pitt.

a figure of the male physique.
a justified sex symbol.

the control of the splattering rain.
Brad's way of holding the gun.
elevation from a non-threatening way to a murderous slant.

eye candy.
too much skin?
the modern entertainment industry. a case of baring too much? wearing too little?

Johnny Depp.
a case of ruggedness?
an outlook of cynicism.
a picture of CONTEMPT.
notice Depp's little pinkie is painted black. AMIR reminded me.
wonder if that hides any connotation?

Alan Cumming.
A misfit.
A discomforting metrosexual.

hairy hands and legs in female drabs. - metrosexual
contorted smile/frown - Heath Ledger's Joker manical smile.
eating chocolate - picture of enjoyment/comfort.

this picture has me questioning.
is all our enjoyment and fashion sense, and more importantly,
our sensibilities a facade?
a tribute to subscribed tastes.
that we trick ourselves into believing that there's enjoyment amidst pain.
countless misfits of social trends which shouldn't but have blended into society.
are our sensibilities a tricked-out mainstream conformed interpretations?

Zhang Huan, 2004.

the stern cold stare of a JUDGEMENT ANGEL in a heavenly setting.
the flitting butterflies on the man denote the flitting and scarce concept of "redemption".
of how close we are to treading the line between right and wrong.

INTERPRETATIONs. PERCEPTIONs.
these are what i have humbly shared over here.
they are not by any means representative of what Robert Wilson has to convey.
and please please fearlessly point out to me where my interpretation may have veered away from the crucial.
or where i have failed to interpret the pieces.

INTERPRETATIONs. PERCEPTIONs.

SUPERB MUSEUM TRIP!

hi hi!! i went to the National Museum of Singapore.
and its really amazinggggg except for the "Singapore history" part. a major part of my disdain was due to the (excessive in my opinion) info-loaded "COMPANION" in the Singapore History Gallery.

but nonetheless i was thrilled today by the exhibits (external)!

1) The Chain of Chang Chien-Chi struck me emotionally.
the concept of human beings chained up for their everyday life (especially those of lower mental capability) isn't going to be appealing to anyone anytime soon. but as quoted "where the more lucid one drag the other around. through meals, and daily.. the treatment by XXX temple proved to be effective" i don't know seriously. is this going to work out? i leave you as a judge.

2) Double Happiness of Chang Chien-Chi struck me deeply about the process where foreign brides leave everything behind and marry to a stranger.
The delight of brides. The sourness of brides. The sorrow of abandonment. The "lusty" eyes of the groom. Somehow Chang managed to play up a feeling of forlorn and victimhood in me in some of the brides featured. The process, the acquiring and the marriage - beyond is unbelievably depressing and lonely for some brides.

3) China Town of Chang Chien-Chi reminded me of the hardships that immigrants have to face. and just not so long ago, our forefathers - grandfathers had to dock at a new land "Nanyang-Singapore" to begin a new life in a stranger land. just as these illegal labourers have to set foot in US anew and without kin. As quoted i think that Chang's quote entirely represent the immigrants feelings. Although this weren't his entire words, the meaning conveyed is roughly equal. "Between the colour (photos) and the black and white is interminable waiting - sometimes neither party know when it has stopped."

4) VOOM Potraits by Robert Wilson is highly entertaining.
As a "still-photo" Wilson has entirely opened up my mind to perceiving.
" i do not interpret my work. Interpretation is for others. To fix a meaning to a work limits its poetry and the possibility of other ideas. They are personal, poetic statements of different personalities."

With this, i'm going to attempt to detail my observation and musing for each artpiece in my first try at photoblogging. haha.. please enjoy.

"what's the point?"

inconsiderable apathy.

recently i've been chancing upon this phrase "what's the point" repeatedly.
i must admit i have sometimes been wont to using it too..
like "what's the point? there's not going to be a happy ending out of it."
then most often than not, we leave it hanging. and not attempt the stuff that we feel is "futile".

more importantly, i feel this reflects a social rot among us. in that this is actually a variation of apathy.
1) it may start with a perception that things have a low possibility of materializing.
2) it quickly promotes to entire "lock-in" and denial even when friends express their encouragement. (more and more so, i observed that when friends express their encouragement, people are quicker to withdraw..)
3) it winds up in ABANDONMENT. of the idea. of a concept. of creativity.
we end up sticking to our regular lives and pass off another groundbreaking possibility of breaking the monotone.

is it a social rot? is anyone going to do anything about changing it?
or is it going to be another "what's the point" ending?

hmmm.. i have been thinking about what to erode away this apathy that's been massacring our youths and myself included.. but i've hit a wall.. and do throw something at me so we can have a exchange on this.

NMS TODAY! =))

so gonna visit a museum today!! excited! haha.. think i'll be solo-in this.
sometimes when appreciating arts i wonder if a 2nd voice would be better (for discussion and diff perspective's sake)
but when left to one's own peace, i believe that this is when i can freely and unabashedly envision and visualize and maybe hopefully interpret art accurately.. (actually there's no right or wrong here, accurate just means getting what the artist wanted to convey)
SO ITS TO THE NATIONAL MUSEUM OF SINGAPORE TODAY! =))

*blistered legs*injuries*bruises*

Christmas dayyy

Its CHRISTMAS BASKETBALL DAY today!
haha i woke up and played some ball.
practiced my shots rebounding pivots and basically have fun.

but what mostly turn ME OFF is this bugger.
he's a kid for the most record. just 12 years old. ask me for a match.
and i'm like coolll.. i'm not going to lose another 1 on 1. after losses to Shu Li and Kayan.
i'll begin my record with you..

turns out i have to ask him to DEFEND ME?! WTH.. hello you are leaving me open all the way to take shots? not that i am going to mind, then pls don't complain that i blow past you, not giving you a chance. that's just spoilt pls!! so i did, scoring layups and post hooks easily. the score is 5 -0 easily, when
BOY: nooo noo no what are we doing?
ME: we're having a match.
BOY: anddddd..?
ME: 5 - 0
BOY: you zero? HAAHAHAHAHAHAA you zero and he broke down onto the floor laughing..
ME: WT.. no. i 5 you zero.
BOY: nooooo i zero i'm going to lose.. nooo.. i didn't know we are having a match
ME: (EXASPERATED) OKAY, let's start from 0 -0 again. your ball first.

and naturally he fired all air balls and my ball is really light. haizz..
okay so i said check.. (turns out he didn't know what a match means what he challenge me in the first place..) and he threw the ball away from me with all his might. WTH?!
okay patience. tolerance. patience. and since it was my turn to attack.. i didn't even run..
and he's like wait wait wait when i fired and got the bucket.
ME: WHAT?!
BOY: wwhy you keep getting the ball in..
ME: isn't this a match?
BOY: butttt..
ME: you got to defend me. give me pressure. lock me in. reduce my angles.
BOY: ? (seriously i see a ? on his face)
ME: okay let me show you (and so i basically explained to him the basics of defence. get between your man and the basket. always stationed yourself there ...)
ME: you get it..?
BOY: okay!!
ME: my turn to attack now. ( by now its 4 -0)

he left me open nonetheless. think my words fell on deaf ears. and he doesn't defend. dosen't challenge me for rebounds. i consecutively caught 5 rebounds just to provoke him into coming in and challenge for the ball. but.. naturally he doesn't.
By now, i'm exasperated. i'll go for the kill.
and i did. shot straight to 9-0.
he wanted to play first to 20. but i managed to cut to first to 11. heng ah.. otherwise i think i would really have lost. get killed by his antics and disrespect. (e.g. after shooting a ball, he did a split. the ball didn't went in of course.)
ME: 2 more balls to my win.
ME: you gonna come up and defend me?
BOY: noo.. i'm going to stand here. (under the post)
ME: okay.. you know i'm going to win right?
BOY: what?? i thought i was?
ME: no. 2 more balls. that's it.. okay i'm coming..
swishh---

ME: 10 -0 check. (bounce the ball to him)
BOY: (he got the ball..) okay i surrender. i'll sstand here. CHECK BACK.
and he hurled the ball away from my direction with all his strength such that it bounced past the other half of the court into the woods..
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
and he just broke down on the ground laughing all the way. haha screaming "you're so lousy"
with that, i walked to pick up my ball. its a wonder i'm still keep my outburst under check.
and he laughs. and laughs. and laughs even louder.
until i raised my middle finger with my back towards him.

I came back. and without even checking just shot a jumper. and i said, got to go.
11-0 end game.

MAN, this kid really got to grow up..
I believe he still has a lot of room to grow. but that attitude? i just don't dig it.
is he a lunatic or eccentric fool? check by throwing MY BALL to the woods?! and laugh and say i am lousy.
but seriously this is a crazy world we live in.

well.. all the pent up frustration is let out.. haaaa.. =))
MERRY CHRISTMAS. and i am looking forward to CHRISTMAS BALLin with my brothers at gang cot at 3.
so till then =))

The Fourth Ramble - Religious rumble

Hiiii i'm back from the church. the house of god.
and i learn 3 lessons today.
ibut first i met a really cute spontaneous pretty girl today!! wow cool dress sense. and filial to her mom. and she sits in front of me in the church.. hahahaha but that's beside the point..
really, i'm awash with friendliness and spirituality today.
this church-going experience is really a fresh and stimulating experience. but remind me on some of the lessons i have to further learn..

Forgive me if any righteous friends reading this post is offended by my light-hearted comments on these lessons on faith. Please do. i'm a greenhorn.

So to the lessons i have learn today:

1) "I'm a sinner."
The pastor nearly shouted in my face, "Yi Feng, are you a SINNER? Tell me."
This is a combination of the discussion i had with my senior nic and the pastor.
PASTOR: If you are going to die tomorrow, and Jesus ask you if you're going to heaven or hell, which will you be going. Its not that wow you came to the church today, so welcome to heaven.
NIC: NOOoo, you got to be spotless, in order to enter heaven.
ME: So dalmations and zebras can't go to heaven?
S I L E N C E
haha that's beside the point.
So yeah, i have sin terribly. But isn't that life?

FRIEND: Yes, he (me) has sinned terribly. He's one of the greatest sinners! He keeps beo-in girls.
PASTOR: No, i won'tgive him that title. I'm.

So yes, i have sinned by looking at that pretty girl sitting in front of me during church.
SINNER. First let me clarify. i'm not exactly a fan of people shouting "YOU'RE A SINNER. SINNER. SINNER. SINNER." in my face. tmd.

To think is to have done.
The act of hatred, "i hate XXXXX" is to have murder.
To think of touching a woman is to have already have sex with her.
To think of sleeping with a married woman is to have commit adultery. (PASTOR)
To think is to do.
All you masturbaters out there, YOU'RE SO DEAD, SINNER!! Haha, just a joke just a joke.
To think is to have done.
In this way, we easily accumulate mountains of sin in a single day.
How can we be spotless (in order to go heaven) then?
MY point, isn't this "to think is to have done" thing taking it a little too far?

I believe i'm no saint.
I have definitely sinned.
But i don't entirely agree with the concept.

One more thing, what about non-believers, i ask.
PASTOR: if you have not heard about the GOSPELS, then there's still another way of going to heaven. there's this concept of human conscience. (this i totally agree) if you ... (he ramble on and on about examples here but let me summ) abide by your conscience - the one law governing your life, then you will and can be spotless. God can forgive you and invite you to the realm of peace.
ME: But what if you have heard?
PASTOR: if you have heard and not give the word, then you go the other way. ... (from here on, he was a picture of erratic disbelief on why someone would not be a son of god believe in the religion take the faith) who, YI FENG, WHO WILL EVER SACRIFICE THAT MUCH FOR YOU? TELLL ME!! TELL ME! (agitation)
ME: err.. (you want me to say no one, except God, yeah but i shall keep quiet)

From here onwards, no offence to believers of faith.
I strongly believe i won't give the word join a fratenity subscribe to a school of thought, just because i want to escape hell and go heaven. or just because i want to remove the label of a sinner. that's so not my belief! i'm not going to be a hypocrite. No offence.
I firmly patted my heart and thought to myself while i was enjoying my ice-cream treat. that God or beliefs lies here.

i believe i'll embrace God one day. be it Chinese god. Muslim god. God. Indian God. or whichever. i refer to a faith. but first our ideals must be aligned.. i'm surely willing to compromise. but it musn't be too far-fetched.
and as proven today, i have been ushered to the other extreme which explains my hesistance.
after all, i believe its a matter of interpretation. INTERPRETATION.

we're but mortals. sins are but our traits.
hypocrite i'm not.
so my faith should not be a lie.
from where my beliefs hearth
i'll interpret so that i can and
i'll fathom the omnipotence.
slowly but surely..

2) POP (Portable Omnipotence Presence)
God is all around us. God with us. Emmanuel.

Matthew 1:23
Behold, a virgin shall be with child, and shall bring forth a son, and they call his name Emmanuel, which being interpreted is, God with us.
Is this what POP is all about?
Somehow, i believe and am very optimistic that this aspect of belief will be undoubtedly useful in our school of 21st century. where everyone zoomed past everyone. where everyone juggle 3 or more devices at one time. where hustle and bustle is the way of life.

The warmness and closeness of God or the concept of Emmanuel is comforting and convenient.
But this is where my concern lies, is God really that portable? Like my PSP. my faith. or do i have to visit a church, a place of worship to be close to God?
It makes it all really convenient doesn't it? But is this really what we want? IS God lost through this convenience?

This will be sometime bogging my mind.. hmmm.. perhaps i think too much.
DEACON: those that we can't grasp, let's leave it to when we go to heaven.. (these aren't his exact words but the meaning is there)
Really? what you don't think and leave it and bury it that your faith will answer, means that you will never fathom anything. half-baked isn't going to cut it, does it? Answerless questions may exist. the question of faith usually is one. but if we are not going to try to fathom it, no progress will ever be made, can it?

3) God is your source of courage.
CHERYL: Since God is with us (Emmanuel), there is no reason to be afraid.

Convenient isn't it? Doesn't courage come from within? Detractors may say i'm talking big here, that courage comes from within. Yes, i do believe that during times of crisis or trauma, the leap of faith and hence courage and strength many times do come from "save me God, pleaseee" or "save me, MOM!!". But true courage i wonder, doesn't it come from within? Such that no flicker of fear darts in your eyes when facing a problem. I'm not thattt courageous, but i question.
To this, i think a quote from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho really cuts the picture nicely.

"People need not fear the unknown, if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."

The Alchemist

Perhaps this is what i lack seriously in my fight. I'm a fighter. i'll seek to humbly learn and master more martial arts. But in order to seriously conquer the flicker of fear in my eyes during a sparring practice or tournie and regain the AGGRESSION that i fearlessly displayed in my attacks 6 years ago, i believe its this. If i truly am capable of achieving what i need and want. This is when determination and commitment to training kicks in. Re-teach yourself. Like Batman in KNIGHTFALL when he wore the Man Bat mask and retrain under SHIVA. I HAVE A LOT TO LEARM!!

AaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.. i feel so much more relieved after clearing my head.
What do you think? Please enlighten me with your replies.
I believe people truly learn during fruitful exchanges. Different opinions open up different outlets in my flawed interpretation.
Please, thank you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! And thanks to Nic and Cheryl for bringing me to the church and opening up my mind.
No offence regarding the stuff i discuss here. i seek your forgiveness if you find anything insulting. thank you and MERRILY CHRISTMAS!!

Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer
had a very shiny nose.
And if you would ever saw him,
You would even say it glows.
...

Cheryl here's your christmas carol. with dedication. MErRy CHRISTMAS!

Bye bye and Good night!

Checking in - MERRY CHRISTMAS

Merry Christmas!!
I tried to be a good boy this year. hope i'll have pressies in my stockings!!
haha. i went to a CHURCH for the first time in my life! and its on 24th Dec!
wow i enjoyed the experience.. will check in again for my latest "religious" ramble pertaining to this exp soon..
Meanwhile have a Messy Christmas!

The Third Ramble - Lessons on honesty #2

A lie churns a lie. Before you know it you're habitually lying.

White lies are still lies.

Lies are mainly either psychological excuses to make up for the insecurities most have.
Like an OL lying about possessions in order not to be despised by a friend of higher social standing.

Most fears are unfounded. Most lies are redundant.

The worst form of lies is to deceive everyone else and yourself.

Stay true to your heart and you will find where the treasure is.
A Lesson from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

The Third Ramble - Lessons on honesty

Those who lie will eventually tell the truth.
Great Teacher Onizuka (GTO Drama)

Followup Ramble - Unfathomable fears, so why worry?

"People need not fear the unknown, if they are capable of achieving what they need and want."
The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Followup Ramble - Let's talk about love #2

It is mainly because they are afraid to do so. With a wealth of fears of a thousand other things which will most likely not surface in their lifetime.

Followup Ramble - Let's talk about love

People in the 21st century do not give away their love that easily.

The Second Ramble - Let's talk about love

haha hiii i'm back. i am gonna try to make an effort to be FAITHFUL (lol) to this blog. yeah going to try to pen down my thoughts and discuss some topics once in a few days. haha! forgive me if you think this is crass, feel free to leave then ;P

okay let's talk about love #1 - ladies.
just got back from bballing =)) wow i bury quite a few hooks in the game!! i shock even myself. haha yeah my first triumph in a 6 - 6 game in a long long time. lol gonna keep up my tough d.
yes basketball is my love. one of many. but let's discuss a little of more tangible stuff like ladies.

i'm going to confess my eyes are not the most loyal creature. they are like honey bees which flit around spontaneously from one eye candy to another. and naturally during my course of "honey bee working" i ahve picked out a few really great ladies who have umm melted my heart? i mean i am not just a looks-kind of guy. and i believe most people aren't. heart. character. all those..

yeah but there is really this lady. not gonna name who.. of course. the girl's privacy is of top priority. that's always my policy. haha (learn this from GREAT TEACHER ONIZUKA) she's pretty and all (some friends would say she look normal) but yeah maybe its because of the person that i saw for who she is, that i think she is really wonderful. she's herself. the true her. lol lest i break into a ramble (againn?!), let me continue. she's someone i could really relate to. but sad to say, i don't think i'll keep up any continuation. its probably just some invisible difference and tight schedules but.. sigh.. she's a friend (must get this clear first not anything special else yet lol)

okay. so let's talk about love. enough about sharing personal details.
this buddy was encouraging me saying. take it slowly. give the friendship time to simmer and blossom into a relationship. others have been poking in over recent periods saying "you can de la" haha. i appreciate it greatly. but i would withdraw all the same. somehow it doesn't feel right. maybe its the insecurity of "rejection", "that things won't work out" and most importantly "that i would lose a great friend that she is". already i hate the way great friendships go to waste when this tingly "crush" feeling pops up at the peak of great exchange. (most people do. already i have seen some friends suffer the same fate) Don't get me wrong, she's still the wonderful girl i envision and believe but somehow there's just a nagging feeling about incompatible lifestyles and feelings. conversation and open talk i think and hope will still be preserved after this encounter. in fact, i feel much lighter, that despite anything, i had made an effort, and hopefully a great friendship is still in the docks.

the list on the agenda that i direly wanted to share and bring up is regarding this: i hate the way perhaps i'm letting a great chance at a beautiful relationship slip by. and i wonder in life, sometimes how many actual chances do you have "for slipping by". ladies have spent eternities looking for Mr. Right and end up being old spinisters. men have cast nets to rake in a wonderful 10/10 lady and end up being termed "more nicely" diamond-studded bachelors. but the point is, a mischance and an eternity and lifetime of regret. we are riding on the wave of youth and vigour now, but crucially i have heard many friends or read blogs detailing this. their darkest fear. the notion of just grabbing someone to spend your life with for life jsut because you don't want to be single, is just blahh plain desperation.

with this i question,
how many mischances do we really have?
how many people do actually feel this as their darkest fear? of desolation and singlehood for life.
how can we measure a gem, the right one?

share about your mischances as well, i'm all ears and hopefully there are still more chances.
to find someone you can relate, talk to, bicker with and come out stronger with is tough.

with that' i leave it at this a high note of muzzling questions that i hope would garner huge responses.

let's talk about love #2
Parental Love.
i had a mild discussion with my mom today about "obedience - meeting parents' expectations - love". usually our discussion always end up in high-octane tiffing heat. haha.
yes. i believe most parents may have this conception.

"you are eating my rice."
"i'm sacrificing so much for you, it makes it only logical that you meet my expectations and wants."
"i require you to abide by this dress sense. to speak this way. to be OBEDIENT!"
"it's all for your own good, ah boy/girl!"

somehow, much as i want to be Confucian-blessed filial, the above are not what i generally agree upon. for one, i don't believe meeting enforced expectations reflect mutual love. rather i believe its the common understanding of what the child loves/ pursue and how the parents either display support/ give the kid free room to experiment even though they disapprove, that will make operation and mutual love more reasonable.
of course i'm not saying that, we should like children try vices like wanton gambling and abusive alcoholic drinking or even chain-smoking habitually.
please we are living in a 21st century, your child is not your playdoll. and you certainly are and should not be a ventriloquist.
liberation rights and freedom is a topic for another day. but being hell-bent on enforcement and kicking up a fit when your child is not meeting your expectations is an utter depravement of not just freedom but the choice to choose and a folly. i believe everyone have their own development path and they would forge a blazing route. that's a staunch belief of mine. i understand parents' concern in helping their kids forge an easier and more sheltered path. its no wonder many can't stand up to criticism and manipulate the school's weakness in not being able deliver crippling comments and blows by doing more audacious "climbing over the head of school" acts.
all in all, parental love is sacredly noble. and i salute every parent for that.
but reprociating love, does not just come in meeting your high expectations.

What do you think?

and i want to learn LOCKING!! omg

The First Ramble - Desolation

Desolation.
Have you ever wondered why we have grown more diverged when we are mired in a greater net of connectivity? makes me wonder if it all is just a mere facade.
networking websites. rise of pubs/clubs. social gatherings on the up ante. why are we more alone? why are we more separated? why are we more distant..

probably the reason why all the emo shit is on the rise as well.

Born in a cocoon
Reapin at the seams
Reeks a futile action
Encouraging withdrawal

A man's puzzle at the self-inflicted wound
Strands himself further in a-nother realm
Such that all is desolation and separation
Leaving everyone bare-naked at a crossroad.

Foreword

Welcome my friend. AFter years of hiding and "posing" i have decided to come clean and yeahh this blog will be one that will keep track of topics and musings which has struck a vibe in me to discuss and publish.

First and foremost, you will see a lot of questioning and much less answering! whoa! i'll disclose this it has always been my inner most carnal wish to be a writer. a journalist. someone whose words could change something.. So this will be my dance floor my platform to jiggle jingle salsa with words and thoughts.

Feel free to leave comments on topics i ramble about. It has always been my belief that only through exchanges can i stimulate and construct my thoughts better or even achieve breakthroughs together.. so please.. feel free to belt out comments off your chest! =))