27 Dec

getting wasted is so not funny.. ulghh

less or no alcohol

9 Dec

Hmm my new year resolution is to say the least amount of "Sorry".

i like these images

The Artwork of Mr Phillip Toledano

From the album Bankrupt

5 Dec - 5 Pressure Points To Relieve Body Discomforts

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(A) Heavenly Pillar

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Relieves stress, over exhaustion, insomnia, heaviness in the head, eyestrain, stiff necks, swollen eyes, and sore throats.

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(B) Heavenly Rejuvenation

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Relieves nervous tension and stiff necks; increases resistance to colds and flu. It is also good for the lungs.

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(C) Crooked Marsh

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Relieves nervous stomach, anxiety, arm pain, elbow pain, and chest discomfort.

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(D) Inner Gate

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Relieves nausea, anxiety, palpitations, and wrist pain.

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(E) Spirit Gate

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Relieves emotional imbalances, fear, nervousness, anxiety, and forgetfulness.

Taken from Clipmarks

Stop an Attack from Behind with Pressure Points

Place your hand on the elbow of the attacker. Most attacks from behind involve the attacker wrapping an arm around the neck or body. Find the pressure point located one inch above the elbow. Press the points on both sides of the upper arm as if sandwiching the bone.

Simultaneously place your other hand on top of the attacker's hand. Wrap your fingers around the meaty part just under the attacker's thumb. Find the pressure point above the webbing between the attacker's thumb and index finger. Press the point from both sides as if sandwiching the meaty part of the attacker's hand. The simultaneous attacks on pressure points in the hand and elbow will stun the attacker.

Stomp the pressure point in the instep of the attacker's foot. Drive your heel straight down on the attacker's shoelaces. This will press the point in the middle of the foot and cause great pain.

Throw your head back. By now the attacker is preoccupied with the pain in his elbow, hand and foot. He is most likely leaning forward in an instinctive reaction to protect himself. Attempt to strike the pressure point just beneath the attacker's nose. This will feel like little more than a tap to the back of your head, but will probably break the attacker's nose.

Step to one side and thrust your elbow straight back. This will put you in line to strike the attacker in the solar plexus. This is the point just below the sternum where your diaphragm helps you breathe. An elbow pressing the point suddenly will knock the air out of any unprepared attacker.

Duck under the attacker's arm while you push up on the arm. This should be easy after neutralizing the attacker with five pressure points in the space of a few seconds. Run away as fast as you can.

All of these pressure point defense techniques should be done in quick succession. The idea is to use the element of surprise to stun the attacker with pressure points. Don't give him time to think about what is happening or to recover. You only have a few seconds to escape. Don't waste them admiring your work.

Taken from Martial Arts Pressure Points

1 Nov

a flitting concept. the butterfly flies.

the comb builds up.
when the bees work.

i bet even the queen bee is sick of sex.
12/7 entertainment is only so entertaining after all.

worker bees build their comb. protect their comb.
as humans push inexorably for achievement.

26 Nov

neurosis occurs when the mind ignore the subconscious.
the subconscious would voice itself through dreams.
and when repeated dreams are ignored - a pit opens.

Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well. - Mohandas Gandhi

Coordinate thought - word - actions, and you'll be fine.

26 Nov

fuelled by my dreams i run.
i like learning new skills.

24 Nov

for boys will always be boys. and the boy will always seek the female butterfly.

blogs give a sense of freedom. the liberating part lies in publishing one's thoughts without considering twice about backlash. but... but... but... this is only true when the followership is low. the dichotomy lies in that people desire a huge following, but responsiblity, censure, sensationalising follows, which goes against the very initial satisfaction.

i am a journalist. coupled with its relevant ethics. the voice of the person. striving to bring every piece of news in its clearest form.

nobility is often undervalued by society. in other words, the dividends of nobility aren't exactly appealing.

if everyone spend more time on work than interests, Newton may have reduced the sea of infinite possibilities before him to a pond by now.

its too bad, any one came with too much of an emotional baggage. and a pre-conceived attitude.

but if you care, to stare beyond the apathy, you will find a fresh unharvested heart waiting to embrace the world.

for the apathy has fouled the heart and the pit that's so often deep and the vision so often flawed, has come to be accepted. accepting is removing the desire of guilt, and removing so, allows the blind to see again.

we're all very much blind and deaf.

even with eyes, do you really think you see?

21 Nov

for the record, the things you think not, does arise.
coordinate in thought, deed, action, speech, and you'll be fine.

Someday i'll be saturday night.
feel like clubbing.

6 Nov

Viva Forever

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

6 Nov

"The light that burns twice as bright burns half as long, and you have burned so very, very brightly" - Dr. Eldon Tyrell

3 Nov - They don't really care about us.

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hit me, kick me
You can never get me

angsty genius
for the record, today's weather is cloudy with spite.

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, aggravation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Bang bang, shock dead
Everybody's gone mad

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Beat me, hate me
You can never Break me
Will me, thrill me
You can never Kill me
Do (jew) me sue me
Everybody do me
Kick me, strike (kike) me
Don't you black or white me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my life
I have a wife and two children who love me
I am the victim of police brutality, no
I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate
Your rapin' me of my pride
Oh for God's sake
I look to heaven to fulfill its prophecy
Set me free

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Trepidation, speculation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Black man, black mail
Throw your brother in jail

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible 'cause you ignore me
Your proclamation promised me free liberty, no
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwin' me in a class with a bad name
I can't believe this is the land from which I came
You know I really do hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no

Skinhead, deadhead
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hit me, kick me
You can never get me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Some things in life they just don't wanna see
But if Martin Luther was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no, no

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, segregation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Kick me, strike (kike) me
Don't you wrong or right me
(They keep me on fire)

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
(They keep me on fire)
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
(I'm there to remind you)
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

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31 Oct - Halloween Run

the faint visions of the girl struck
a goring pain in the heart stuck
knowing no way can she park
yet it makes me think i really suck

Silly Really - Per Gessle
born to run

24 Oct

Action expresses priorities. - Mohandas Gandhi

22 Oct

You give love a bad name - Bon Jovi

An angels smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passions a prison, you cant break free

Youre a loaded gun
Theres nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Chorus:
Shot through the heart
And youre to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name

Paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boys dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

Youre a loaded gun
Theres nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

17 Oct

Have A Nice Day - Bon Jovi

Ohhh, if there's one thing I hang onto,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.

På promenad genom stan - Per Gessle

Do you wanna be my baby - Per Gessle

14 Oct

Someday i'll be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi


Hey, my name is jim, where did I go wrong
My lifes a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
I just cant hold a job, where do I belong
Im sleeping in my car, my dreams move on

One Wild Night - Bon Jovi

12 Oct

Knockin' On Every Door - Roxette (Per Gessle!!)
I Know There's Something Going On - Frida
Kids in America - Kim Wilde
You're My Heart, You're My Soul '98 - Modern Talking
Always - Bon Jovi
Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi

9 Oct

Its official. BON JOVI ROCKS MY SOUL!

Livin' On A Prayer - Bon Jovi
[Alternative-Soft Rock to Livin' On a Prayer] Prayer '94 - Bon Jovi
Runaway - Bon Jovi
Always - Bon Jovi
It's My Life - Bon Jovi
One Wild Night - Bon Jovi
Everyday - Bon Jovi
You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi
Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi


Someday I'll Be Saturday Night - Bon Jovi
Oh, Tuesday just might go my way
It can't get worse than yesterday
Thursdays, Fridays ain't been kind
But somehow I'll survive

Hey, man I'm alive I'm takin' each day and night at a time
Yeah I'm down, but I know I'll get by
Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life
I'm gonna pick up all the pieces and what's left of my pride
I'm feelin' like a Monday, but someday I'll be Saturday night

Saturday night Here we go
Some day I'll be Saturday night
I'll be back on my feet, I'll be doin' alright
It may not be tomorrow baby, that's OK
I ain't goin' down, gonna find a way, hey hey hey



You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi
Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin' you give love a bad name


Runaway - Bon Jovi
On the street where you live girls talk about their social lives
Theyre made of lipstick, plastic and paint, a touch of sable in their eyes
All your life all youve asked whens your daddy gonna talk to you
You were living in another world tryin to get your message through.

No one heard a single word you said.
They should have seen it in your eyes
What was going around your heart.

...

A different line every night guaranteed to blow your mind
See you out on the streets, call me for a wild time
So you sit home alone cause theres nothing left that you can do
Theres only pictures hung in the shadows left there to look at you

You know she likes the lights at nights on the neon broadway signs
She dont really mind, its only love she hoped to find

8 Oct

Tale a look around - Limp Bizkit
Thank you for loving me - Bon Jovi
Island in the sun - Weezer
Runaway - Avril Lavinge
Life goes on -LeAnn Rimes
Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
Affirmation - Savage Garden

7 Oct - free and affirmed

Save Tonight - Eagle Eye Cherry
Här Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle
Are you still having fun - Eagle Eye Cherry









tomorrow comes to take me away
i wish that i - that i could stay
but girl you know i've got to go [ohh ]
and Lord i wish it wasn't so
Save tonight


i have confidence in my abilities.

7 Oct

Surf Wax America - Weezer
I Want It That Way - Backstreet Boys
Anything but ordinary - Avril Lavigne
No one else comes close - Backstreet Boys
Please don't stop the music - Rihanna
(GREAT) The Great London Traffic Warden - Morcheeba




Kitaro
Back Water - Brian Eno













Dislike people who conveniently disrespect privacy, and take it as a god given right.
What you want is often not what you get.
Needs to do Ops fast!
Clears as fast as possible.
Having a little extra time helps to relieve things a long way.
Strive to take on a more easy-less pressed up life.

why go

Pearl Jam
The Killers

5 Oct

Can't Fight The Moonlight - LeAnn Rimes
Här Kommer Alla Känslorna - Per Gessle

Här Kommer Alla Känslorna

Jag borde ha förstått nåt när du tittade bort
Att allting har ett slut
Att allt det vackra är kort
Nu sitter jag och fryser på en regnig perrong

Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Vi möttes mitt i vintern när mitt hjärta var tömt
Jag placerade dig i drömmen som jag borde ha glömt
Nu faller den från himlen som en trasig ballong

Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Och här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Jag sitter ensam kvar och hör varje tåg
Vissla hallå ifrån ett ringlande spår
Var är du?
Man kan undra när timmarna går
Du borde sett hur underbart jag mår

Jag ska bygga mig en båt och segla tills det blir vår
Jag ska försöka att förtränga doften av ditt hår
Jag ska skrika så det hörs igenom all grå betong

För här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Jag sitter ensam kvar och hör varje tåg
Vissla hallå ifrån ett evigt spår
Men det är slut
Det är dags att slå en knut
Öppna grinden för nu går jag ut

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång

Swedish - English translation:

I should have understood something when you looked away
That everything has an end
That everything is pretty short
Now I sit and freeze on a rainy platform

And here comes all the emotions at the same time
And here comes all the emotions at the same time

We met in the middle of winter when my heart was emptied
I placed you in a dream that I should have forgotten
Now it falls from the sky like a broken balloon

And here comes all the emotions at the same time
And here comes all the emotions at the same time

I sit all alone and hear every train
Whistle hello from a winding track
Where are you?
One wonders when the hours are
You should have seen how wonderful I feel

I'll build me a boat and sail until it becomes our
I will try to suppress the smell of your hair
I'll scream so it is heard through all gray concrete

For this, all the emotions at the same time
Here are all the emotions at the same time

I sit all alone and hear every train
Whistle hello from an eternal track
But it is the end
It is time for a knot
Open the gate for now I go out

Here are all the emotions at the same time
Here are all the emotions at the same time

Här kommer alla känslorna på en och samma gång
Here are all the emotions at the same time

William Shakespeare's As You Like It

All the world's a stage,

And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven ages.

"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms;
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' brow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths, and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lin'd,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well sav'd, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion;
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything."

— Jaques (Act II, Scene VII, lines 139-166)

4 Oct

You Gonna Miss This - Trace Adkins

what you don't get makes your yearn for it.
it's sad that what humans can't understand, humans chuck.
a missed opportunity is archived. they should not be brought up and talk about unless necessary.

3 Oct

S.O.S. - Agnetha Fältskog
Je marche seul - Jean-Jacques Goldman

Please no disaster please.
Golden.

Does this imply service draws boys away from childhood?

debt

no one owes you anything.

even if you do people favours, people may not even reciprocate.
lesson learnt.

30 Sep

Mama - Spice Girls
Mamma Mia- ABBA
On a night like this - Kylie Minogue
To the moon and back - Savage Garden
Lena Philipsson
Faithful - Go West
Those simple things - Right said Fred
POP - Nsync
Sinfoni Deo - Era
Om Du Bara Vill - Per Gessle

sincere things endure.

Claudia Jung - JE T'AIME MON AMOUR

a song with feel.
Claudia Jung

JE T'AIME MON AMOUR

Verliebt ist,wenn man trotzdem weint
Das kommt bestimmt vom glücklich sein
Ich geb'mich ganz in deine Hand
Das Herz ist stärker als Verstand
Je t'aime mon amour
Ich küsse Dir die Augen zu
Alles was ich jetzt brauch,bist immer nur du

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn meine Zärtlichkeit erwacht
Spür'wie die Wärme deiner Haut
Das Eis in meiner Seele taut
Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht
Wenn dein Gefühl mich hilflos macht
Es gibt für uns nur Liebe pur
Ce soir je t'aime mon amour

Bist mir ganz nah im Kerzenlicht
Und deine Augen streicheln mich
Ich lieg'in deinem Arm und sag'
was ich sonst nur zu denken wag'
Je t'aime mon amour

Wieviele Stunden hat die Nacht...


German Google Translate

I Love you my love

Love is when you still weeps
This is determined by be happy
I geb'mich entirely in your hands
The heart is stronger than intellect
Je t'aime mon amour
I kiss your eyes
All I need now, you're always you

How many hours are there in the night
When waking my affection
Spür'wie the warmth of your skin
The ice thaws in my soul
How many hours are there in the night
If your feeling helpless makes
For us there is only pure love
Ce soir je t'aime mon amour

Are very close to me in the candlelight
And your eyes caress me
I lieg'in your arm and tell
I only dare to think otherwise '
Je t'aime mon amour

How many hours are there in the night ...


human beings have a thirst to understand things that they don't know.

born to run

today's run was okay.
found a new running route.
realized i can run to east coast park from my house.

much slower though. it could be the 2 months lull of not running.




my mind can hardly be stimulated now. and feel really excited.
is this a result of growing up?
if so, i don't want it.
i'm joking.
this is part of life.

a burning heart

Flaming heart flaming heart...


i just finished a drama.
the last episode is really awesome!
Burning Flame III

great great drama to watch.
draggy and exhausting love triangle.
the ladies Aimee Chan 容少意 (Easy) , Rachel Kan 何懿徵 (June Ho) , Elaine Yiu 卓敏 (Cheuk Man) are pretty with well-developed characters.
thought shing 鍾有成 (阿牛) would really die as with the preceding two series.
brave fireman. failed relationship. obstinate as an ox. thrown into coma. lost a leg. amputated. haunted by death visions. and yet still had the tenacity to overcome things and bounce back from life, no matter how much he wanted to give up and probably would have.

really have much alike with his character. though would not have like those bad attributes. i'm indeed stubborn.
plus he had a pretty girlfriend in the end, 何懿徵 (June) . haha
























his hard driving, bull-dozing hardworker mould is what i used to pride myself on, and hoped to make it my mould for the present and the future.
coupled with 卓柏宇 (Rex)'s fun-loving style, clean-cut and refreshing dress sense, loyalty to friends, high-flying achiever mould.



































won't do anything if it isn't fun. dress practically yet gentlemanly. work hard and aim for the achievement while playing by the ear and learning to take obstacles, navigating past unhappiness, living the life of the "superior" person.

well a guy can dream.
however it is true.

out of difficulties grow miracles.

Photos courtesy of TVB.

off technique

my technique is still off.
think every individual have their own brand of turning kick. but the starting point is all similar.

got to practice and find my own niche.

ops tomorrow.
somehow working isn't that fun anymore.
my pact with myself, to make life as fun as ever seems to be falling apart.

flawed

its how you react when you know your flaws that forms your character.
knowing and not changing not alleviating it is stupid.

i lacked speed.
i have a slow reaction.
i take some time to warm up.
its difficult to sustain my attention.

the brain runs

(this cool guy is not me by the way)

the thing about martial arts is not something you pick up, learn and forget.
its for life.
and through it, through the silent honing of the techniques, one learn more about oneself.
and learn to respect myself more, through the repeated honed execution of technique.
a journey of self-esteem.
its also a journey of realization, and learning about one's responses when in a particular situation.
when a guy charges at you, do you stand and get hit.
or do you retreat.
or do you slide away and counter.
do you despair after getting hit?
or do you rebound from each hit, and learn to embrace life more.

Remember, life is precious so stand up with more strength after you fall.
Burning Flame Season 2 Synopsis Musing

taking shots may be necessary. but it should not be passive.
the supporting leg needs to be less slothy. (sounds like slutty)
and the body needs to react with equal sharpness vigour and power.

its just like life. taking shots may be necessary.
but it should not be passive. like getting tank-loaded with assignments.
two things are important. learning not to compromise oneself and be gracious and open/accommodating at the same time. craving a retreat path/backing for oneself if things blow up.

its really much like martial arts.
finding the "complementariness" and not just going on a one-way loading of information is necessary.
there's after all so much a sensei, a teacher can load into you. the effort, the desire to improve comes from the student.
自古以来 this has been the case, 自今也不会变。
be humble. learn. as in really learn. effort. and i'll be fine.

we meet teachers at every point of our life. its how we internalize the different teachings that define our character.

we meet difficulties in our daily life. it is our response that says a lot about our character. it is how we choose to cope with it at that moment. or if the moment has passed, and it was unsatisfactorily handled, how we pull out the stops to overcome it, such that it doesn't become a habitual haunt.

there is nothing more stupid in this world than making the same mistake twice. (stubborn as i may be, i am not stupid.)

acknowledging

i don't think it is a problem of not knowing the technique.
it is a problem of enforcing myself to execute the right technique every single time.
and enjoy it at the same time. - the challenge

what would i be, if i persist in my stubborn-playful-anyhow-self indulgent-mood
there would be no improvement.
time to pull out all stops.

gonna try the enforcement.

responsibility is a big issue for me now.
making and amassing money is one big issue too.
my hand hurts~~

english tea

Would you care to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

vs

Would you like to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

i think they are worlds apart in meaning. haha

a summer song

after all, i am still a little boy at heart.

Chad and Jeremy - A summer song

They say that all good things must end someday
Autumn leaves must fall

off to kick. aim: practice each technique acutely.

me

i'm not a saint.

English Tea - Sir Paul McCartney

Would you care to sit with me
For a cup of English tea?

What a pleasure it would be
Chatting so delightfully...

Miles of miles of English garden
Stretching past the willow tree
Lines of hollyhocks and roses
Listen most attentively

As a rule the church bells chime
When it's almost supper time

my idea of a fun-packed day

Today has been a reasonably fun day.
Tried to relax, let loose. release the two clenched fists that i think i always hold. (seriousness)
I know that i am capable of having good fun. but when the time comes fun seems to evade me sometimes.

but it has been reasonably fun. caught up with quite a few good friends.

set off for Escape theme park. great drift. great bang. cold. bad weather. bad VIKING pirate ship.

celebrated a dear friend's birthday at a buddy's house. pleasant surprise. great soulcalibur action. great 1-round mahjong. enjoyed it. wished to chat more with the girl in white.

basketball! great setpiece. thank you weiqing. made a few good baskets. pulled my left leg. injured AGAIN?!

chinatown.. midautumn festival lightup! saw some performance. felt the atmosphere. we saw the dance performance by bedok south sec sch again! the veiled energetic dance piece. made a new friend.

clarke quake. bumped around. slided into a retro pub. mocktails. like the feeling. good atmosphere. great live retro songs. good bartending. good music spun. great soccer. arsenal wigan 4 - 0.

what's pubbing without girls? found that despite really wanting to have fun and letting loose, i am still not loose. i didn't hit on girls. didn't have the confidence in the end. (eugene is probably right, i asked him would i succeed in hitting on girls. he said, "depends on your net. the wider net you cast ..., and depends on how desperate you are." think he was implying that everyone can get one but at the end of the day it just depends on the quality.

i do think ladies are sophisticated. that each and every is a tough rocher. beautiful and sweet to taste. but tough nut to crack in the inside.

basically i just thought the lady in pink is hot. just the right uninhibition. just the right smile. just the right confidence to stand out. just the right glances.

maybe (i do think too much).

maybe.

the game is the life

let loose. different perspective.

time to let the strain loose. and the game sink in.

have a little fun.

know the problems. know what i need to do.
but i am not doing it. that's why i get stuck.
time to move to change the flow.

let the strain loose. and the game sink in.

if its not fun, don't do it.

kayak.
man and boat as one.

taekwondo.
legs not as an extension.
body not as an obstruction.
but as an entity.
swift in attack. swift in defence.
with a spring in step, and react.
swift and decisive. (armour)

A runner's dope

Running is my dope.
But i had steered away from my passion for 2 months.
its time to plucker up the mizuno running shoes and be free.
NEW BALANCE RUN X-TRAIL RUN coming up.

NIKE HUMAN RACE =(

RUN FOR HOPE maybe =)

maybe we will born to run.


do not force, what is forced.
let go, and give breathing space, life's short, why give each other hell.

when clenched, you get two fists.
but if you relax, you can grasp anything in this world.

草莓牛奶糖

i'm addicted to this 儿童歌曲：草莓牛奶糖
remembered i heard it on a children's show before, and the tune and purity of the song enraptured me since.
and i just heard it on capital95.8 and i was hooked.
but can't seem to find it anywhere online..
man, fine fine song. if you know.. please tell me.

Pouting

something that i have been always curious about

the "orange peel" texture of your skin, these "popply" bumps are caused by your mentalis muscle. Your pouting muscle. -Chuck Palaniuk, Diary

Free-running

Sometimes i wonder if parkour is just

running on an

adrenaline high.

The feeling of abandonment
The ability to free-run not because you can.
Leap over places. Jump over seemingly high railings.
Not because its rehearsed.
But the body just wants to run when its feeding on adrenaline.

Indomitable.

Running the R-Cube run

Supposedly Competitive run.
Didn't push as hard as i would have like.

Date/Venue: 10 Aug, Pasir Ris Park
Time Taken: 11 min 38 s 50 ss
Approx. Distance: 3km

Remarks:
Been rusty.
But still content with a run below the target i set for myself.

Got to run faster. Gasoline.

DREAMS ON FIRE

Dreams are running so fast, as if they are on fire.. should i stay grounded and risk losing dreams or risk losing possibility of it not materializing at all? such a DILEMMA.

WANNABE FIGHTER.
WANNABE DRUMMER.
WANNABE DRIVER.
WANNABE COMMUNITY VOLUNTEER.
WANNABE DANCER.
WANNABE WRITER.
WANNABE CURRENT AFFAIRS ANALYST.
WANNABE CASH COW.

WANNABE WANNABE

hope i don' run out of steam.. do what's necessary. and not be fickle.

we got to hold on,
to what we got,
it doesn't matter if we make it or not
...

we got to hold on,
READY OR NOT
You live for the fight when its all that you've got
...

really life's a fight.
and we got to live for it like its all that we've got.

arrest the sloth!! sirens please!!
Adapted from Jon Bon Jovi - Livin' on a Prayer

For the fun of it

Considering an open relationship

An open relationship is a relationship in which the participants are free to have emotional, spiritual and/or physical relationships with other partners. If the couple making this agreement are married, it is an open marriage. Open relationships are often confused for partnered non-monogamy in which only multiple sexual relationships are arranged with other partners.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Open_relationship

A casual relationship is a physical and emotional relationship between two people who may have a sexual relationship or a near-sexual relationship without necessarily demanding or expecting a more formal romantic relationship as a goal. ... Related terms are friends with benefits...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casual_relationship

it is not a wonder while many have turn to an open relationship.
the concept of being involved in a relationship yet not being anchored responsibilities-wise is an enticing concept for many.

we just wanna have fun and not force each other to commit yeah? its just a part-time effort on each party. or no effort at all. just call each other out when you would like a date. accompany-sake.

sex or no, fun's the calling.

in fact sex isn't even an important ingredient. its for the company, for the relationship experience, for the fun..

the casualness and deconstruction of traditional belief of what a relationship - commitment may be appalling to some. but face it, its very functional and feasible for this age of time.

Popular sex educator Tristan Taormino is also an advocate of open relationships.

not ruling out long-time commitment, commit only if you want to. we want democracy, we want freedom. this is it. it maybe miscontrued. or even less morally sound. it is even less congruent with "traditional society's standards". but..

it is a game. Just as J-Drama fans would have remembered from Takuya Kimura in Pride, its really just a game. Why not?

"its just a game"

In Malaysia, Are you Chinese?

Excerpt from

In Malaysia, the question is finally asked: Are you Chinese?

By Shuzheng

More than anybody else, the former premier Mahathir Mohamad must bear responsibility for this racism, promoted in his pseudo social commentary, The Malay Dilemma where he virtually invented Malay grievances and directed them to the Chinese as the primary cause. This is racism par excellence because it mirrors the way Nazism pinned the problems of the entire German nation on the Jews.

http://mt.m2day.org/2008/content/view/24636/84/

Followup commentary soon

Discover the world

Discover the world starts with small baby steps.
Spark off the Discover Singapore movement.
Starting with Culture.
I'll start by discovering and examining the cultures of the races in Singapore. =))

Culture
Chinese
Malay
Indian
Nation
History
Defence Force
Region
World
Music
Stamps
Sports
Science
Health
Arts
War

Step out and enjoy life. I'll try to provide scans of reports done of each visit. =)
till then..

Inaction and our youths

To think or not to think
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/chronicle/opinion/vol15no10/p3.html
Digital Nanyang Chronicle: Vol. 15 no. 10

It is true. I personally observed and found it to be disheartening that i rarely find individuals talking "aggressively" about their passions, championing causes and doing things they lack. Things that they often cite are excuses, army lah where got time, study lah where got time, exams coming lah where got time, lazy lah where got time (oops its lazy lah whr . . .)

But conversations nowadays seem to centre more around work and studies. When we are already clocking like what, 9 hours a day? Maybe this is true, what the author Nabilah Bte Syed Sultan wrote

if you are more comfortable with the person you are conversing with, you are more likely to open up and speak about issues other than school. Conversation topics differ, however, when you are with acquaintances or with, to put it crudely, “friends for convenience”.

But even close friends seem to mumble about work or studies now.

Has life gotten boring?
Or have our youths forgotten about listening to their passions? Their dreams? Have they forgotten to take their ROADTRIP to discover the world? (courtesy of reading Roadtrip Nation)

Disillusioned, uncertain and wrapped by retarded layers of spoonfeeding for years, i fear that our youths are getting consumed by inaction. Already defence of their own passions seem to be taking on a losing battle over their conversations as the article would have proven.

Apathy. Inaction is a tempting consuming hand. But this is your own life.
This is your own run. You run it.

As Howard White, Vice Director of NIKE says, take the same passion you display when you head to the basketball courts (if you love basketball, i do so i can relate easily) as you would to life, if you love life and want to do well in it.

Its your life. Its your fight. Its your run.

Survival of the Fittest, not the locals

Survival of the Fittest, not the locals
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/chronicle/opinion/vol15no10/p4.html
From Digital Nanyang Chronicle: Vol. 15 No. 10

As Darwinian's theory has proven, it truly is the survival of the fittest.
Despite being perturbed by the overwhelming surge in foreigners (observe that a MRT cabin holds 60 % foreigners), it truly is survival of the fittest. Now what comes into question, is a realist attitude of efficiency, cost, attitudes of workers rather than race, nationality.

Note that, the government is not able to turn a blind eye to civilians' woes at unemployment of unsatisfactory employment (its bad for the polls if they do adopt the realist way of thinking), but there really is a limit to what they can do. Protect the locals and what? Lose everything Singapore has build since birth? Do not forget that Singapore is a village grounded in cosmopolitan roots from the times of our forefathers.

Much as it disheartens me to say this, it is the truth, perform or pack up. Eat or get eaten.

Survival of the fittest, not the locals
Do not blame the government for not doing their part to reserve university places or jobs for you. Examine yourself if you have work hard enough to deserve that job. Work till the job needs you more than you need it. That's the modern day job security. Its not your years of service or your nationality that counts now.

Some may say, that it is easy for me to say this because i am detached. But this is essentially the truth. The reality hurts. Hurts me too. Golden ricebowls are getting increasingly invisible nowadays. But then again, Singapore has always used the meritocratic approach.

Does making a discount this time by disregarding meritocratic roots and making a concession for locals really help? As a passionate community-conscious individual i hope so, but history has taught me otherwise.

Think again.
Sad, but true
Its Survival of the fittest, not the locals

Running in the Evening

48 minutes run.
Start: 6 00 pm
End: 6: 47: 59: 65
Distance (approx) : 6 km

Jogging at night

Feeling lethargic after not running for a week, i embark on my "religious" routine of donning my saucony "fbt-like" shorts and singlet, tying my shoe laces and jog out into the night.

I started at 7 02. And reminded myself to not succumb to the temptation of breaking out into a high-tempo run. Jog, jog jog was my motive today. Nothing but a slow relaxing constant pacing jog today.

More importantly, i tried to put a new learning into action today. At the library earlier, i had chanced upon a quote.

"Don't pack a lot. You never need as much as you bring. Live life simply so you can pick up and move onto your next adventure."

All my life, i realized i have been packing way too much. Whether it be literally, into my bags. Be it school bags, outing, field pack, i have been packing way too much. Mentally, i have been packing too much too. Worrying about things that are unnecessary. That has caused me to develop an anxiety problem. A result of packing way too much mentally unnecessarily. My focus has been wrong all along.Worrying about the wrong things. Pre-occupying myself with irrelevant retarded thoughts. Crushes. Ha, a joke.

Packing too much unnecessarily.

These are all baggage. And i need to throw them away and focus on simply the thing at hand. This time round, the jog. So that, i can move uninhibited into the next phase. A sort of ruthless efficiency and being uninhibited.

Uninhibited way of living.

So i jog. And jog. And jog. Many times i caught the urge to up my tempo and break out into an accelerated jog to match these people sprinting past me. But for what use.

I run my own run. Life is again about running your own run.

So i jog. And jog. Till 1 hr 59 min later. In between, using 64 minutes to clock 8.8 km. Total distance averages around > 12 km. End of run 9 pm. Sky's dark. Stomach's growling. Legs are numb.

The feeling's great. Running uninhibitedly. Running without a sense of time. Running without holding back.

Of course, the sore legs and the dread of waking up tomorrow with numbness and pai-ka-ness. Walking with a little limb. Pai-ka-chu.

But i'll jog more. Increasing the mileage. Increasing the joy. Running my own run. Leaving all baggage. Running Yi Feng's run!

Guess who's back

Guess who's back
Back again
Yi Feng's back
Back again

YEAH! i'm back again to chart my random musings here. =))
HELLO EVERYONE

What happens when a heart gets frozen?

BLEAKORY?

The heart is frozen.
The world seems cold.
Apathy's real.
World's losing ground.

A limb a time.
A cell a second.
A-wash and gone.
The world seems cold.

The wallet is empty.
The urn is bleak.
With nothing to give
The world seems cold.

Numbers are falling.
Children are dying.
The world seems cold.
If we do as so.

written 17 - 04 - 09
17 16 21
Yi Feng

Virgin Clubii

whoa yeah i'm BACK! after such a long parting.
N S has been tough sweet and bitter all at once.

but the important thing is that P O P looooooooooo.
And naturally the lessons that OC Sir, PS GAN, PC Sir and SGTs thought us.

So i went for my maiden CLUBing @ ZOUK. (fri mambo night)
man the whole process was apprehensive mixed with crazy dancing.
didn't i can dance like that mad ;P
but okay i'm a good boy haha
didn't "CHAT" with any ladies
and yeah this should counted as a good experience

will there be a next one?
yonder year maybe.
long long long time away
hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa